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well things around my family are a little messed up. i havent seen my son in months and i have no idea when i am going to get to see him again. the last i heard he was doing good but when i talk to him on the phone he isnt the way he has always been. he knows who i am but when i am hanging up with him and i say i love you to him he doesnt seem to want to talk to me. my aunt donna said its because he doesnt know who i am and also because he never see's me. but the thing is though is if she brought him around or even if she talked to him about me instead of just talking about the rest of the family he would know me. it hurts me more and more everyday to imagine what things will be like when we do finally tell him he was adopted. i am afraid he wouldnt wan nothing to do with me even then because thats how he is being raised. i have tried talking to my family about how i feel but they just push it off and say that i am overreacting. i dont think i am over reacting about how things are turning out. when i agreed to the adoption i was told that i would get pictures and get to see him whenever i wanted and that he would know who i am but it looks as if my family has done nothing but lied to me. i dont know what to do anymore my son is everything to me and i love him more then life itself and i feel as if i have lost him completely. if any of you can help me i would surely appreciate it.