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its getting hard for you to love me and i dont think you can do it any more youve already shown me that and your still showing me
you dont do little things for me any more
today is our anniversary and your first day of school and you didnt call me at lunch
to me that says your either having to much fun to think of me or your just dont care bc there is time for you to call me you have a lunch break and bathroom breaks

the pain that you cause me always hurts me so much
it can only be taken away by your soft and sensual touch
but your words and actions bruise and batter me so much
they stay in my mind for what seems an eturnity
the sting only getting worse with each and every new line
i feel so small and insignificant when it comes to being in your life
i was hoping to marry you but i can barley see us making it another month
leah i love you but you hurt me so much you dont show me that you care and it hurts alot
im sitting here waiting for you to leave me again and i know you will and it kills me to know its going to happen
i need you in my life and i cant loose you

i just dont know what to do
im tired of crying

i love you leah
but i dont think that its enough for you
i love you