To Infinity...and Maybe a little Further
(*Same As Yesterdays Xanga*)
so hey guys and chicks. i've been doing alot of deep thinking lately, which according to Ian, might kill me. lol.
i've just been thinking about where i'm going. with my life, with love, with my interests, with my future. basically i've been asking myself: "where am i going to be when i die?".
death is inevitable. it seems so far distant, but yet so close. anyone could die at any moment. natural causes or not, death will eventually come. and i guess its not to optimistic to think about it. but seriously people, it's reality. we all die one day.
but, i want to know. i want to decide right now where i'm going to be when i kick the bucket. i dont want to go living my life day to day because thats not how i feel like being anymore. i was like that for a few years, well the past 16 and 1/2 years of my life, and it got me nowhere. it got me nothing. just failure. i want to realize for once who i am and actually make it happen.
So so far, here's what i have for my future up until i die. it sounds pretty good in writing...type...but i know it wont happen until i put some things to action first.
Plans for My life:
Not Number 0 but, some number higher up on my list than #1 is to stay friends with AJ for life
1. Get straight As for once (i'm so close!!! All A's except for a B in psych and a C in drivers ed)
2. Graduate from H.S
3. Move out of my house, get a job, and get a car..oh wait,,,that comes when i get straight As
4. Get accepted into LDSBC
5. Get a degree in interior design and bussiness management
6. Open a succesful interior design bussiness
7. Get Married to the right person in the Temple
8. have my honeymoon on like some gorgeous tropical island
9.. Move into an actual house along the SoCal coast
(Get a dog somewhere in here)
10. have kids...no more than 3
11. watch my children grow up and not miss one thing
13. be a FUN mom who does everything right for her kids
14. Go walking along the beach barefoot, hand in hand with the love of my life everyday
15. Teach my children to love life and savor every moment of it
16. hopefully NEVER contract diabetes
17. Watch the sunset and sunrise everyday for the rest of my life
18. have a rosegarden with some other flowers thrown in (they make my happy)
19. once my kids are grown and off to college and what not, pursue my life long dream of being an author/poet
(Somewhere in here..start traveling the world)
20. retire to the florida coast and hopefully AJ will be there cuz thats where most jews go when they retire
21. be a grandma
22. go walking along the beach everyday still hand in hand with the love of my life
23. watch the sunrise and sunset everyday until my final sunset comes.
Thats all i have so far, i think thats a pretty like basic synopsis of what i want. it gets more complicated and detailed when i think about it in my head, but so far simply put, thats what i want. i dont wish much for material possessions just to be happy. i mean everybody likes $$ and sure, id like to make it big with my whole interior design biz, but if it happens it happens, if it doesnt, it doesnt.
~diana~
so hey guys and chicks. i've been doing alot of deep thinking lately, which according to Ian, might kill me. lol.
i've just been thinking about where i'm going. with my life, with love, with my interests, with my future. basically i've been asking myself: "where am i going to be when i die?".
death is inevitable. it seems so far distant, but yet so close. anyone could die at any moment. natural causes or not, death will eventually come. and i guess its not to optimistic to think about it. but seriously people, it's reality. we all die one day.
but, i want to know. i want to decide right now where i'm going to be when i kick the bucket. i dont want to go living my life day to day because thats not how i feel like being anymore. i was like that for a few years, well the past 16 and 1/2 years of my life, and it got me nowhere. it got me nothing. just failure. i want to realize for once who i am and actually make it happen.
So so far, here's what i have for my future up until i die. it sounds pretty good in writing...type...but i know it wont happen until i put some things to action first.
Plans for My life:
Not Number 0 but, some number higher up on my list than #1 is to stay friends with AJ for life
1. Get straight As for once (i'm so close!!! All A's except for a B in psych and a C in drivers ed)
2. Graduate from H.S
3. Move out of my house, get a job, and get a car..oh wait,,,that comes when i get straight As
4. Get accepted into LDSBC
5. Get a degree in interior design and bussiness management
6. Open a succesful interior design bussiness
7. Get Married to the right person in the Temple
8. have my honeymoon on like some gorgeous tropical island
9.. Move into an actual house along the SoCal coast
(Get a dog somewhere in here)
10. have kids...no more than 3
11. watch my children grow up and not miss one thing
13. be a FUN mom who does everything right for her kids
14. Go walking along the beach barefoot, hand in hand with the love of my life everyday
15. Teach my children to love life and savor every moment of it
16. hopefully NEVER contract diabetes
17. Watch the sunset and sunrise everyday for the rest of my life
18. have a rosegarden with some other flowers thrown in (they make my happy)
19. once my kids are grown and off to college and what not, pursue my life long dream of being an author/poet
(Somewhere in here..start traveling the world)
20. retire to the florida coast and hopefully AJ will be there cuz thats where most jews go when they retire
21. be a grandma
22. go walking along the beach everyday still hand in hand with the love of my life
23. watch the sunrise and sunset everyday until my final sunset comes.
Thats all i have so far, i think thats a pretty like basic synopsis of what i want. it gets more complicated and detailed when i think about it in my head, but so far simply put, thats what i want. i dont wish much for material possessions just to be happy. i mean everybody likes $$ and sure, id like to make it big with my whole interior design biz, but if it happens it happens, if it doesnt, it doesnt.
~diana~