so shady.
yesterday i was all set to go down the shore after seeing "Quidam: Cirque Du Soleil". after the show was a bbq at my uncles. it was a good time. then everyone went to alex's grandmoms house to go swimming.. so i never saw anyone until 12? 1230? i really wanted to go.
today.. i was supposed to meet ryan and steph p. down at the shore. i called from 2-4 trying to get ahold of her. i got down there, drove around for a good hour.. about an hour and a half.. and said "fuck it" and drove home. she got back to me around 530.
staci is starting to piss me off. what the fuck i did to her is beyond me. i know she wasnt home last night- exactly where she was i dont know.. but the only place she doesnt get service is her house. i tried calling her all day yesterday and today. hell i even text'd nick saying "if your with staci, tell her to call me when you get this." and she sends me a text at around 6 this morning. she doesnt call back at all today.. it's really starting to get to me now. she's one of the few friends i have left and she's doing a fan-fucking-tastic job of dicking me over all the damn time. i am seriously mad at her. why shouldn't i be? hell.. what if i really needed a best friend to talk to because i was on the verge of killing myself. fuck that. if she wont call me, i wont call her. i'll take her off my contacts in my cell phone so i wont even have the urge to call her. im tired of putting myself out there when i get nothing in return.
i talked to big dan on the way home from the BWI the other night. i told him i just wont be as persistent anymore. i try so damn hard and get nothing.
it's not like anyone fucking gives a rats ass.
fuck this. i think im going to the gym.
today.. i was supposed to meet ryan and steph p. down at the shore. i called from 2-4 trying to get ahold of her. i got down there, drove around for a good hour.. about an hour and a half.. and said "fuck it" and drove home. she got back to me around 530.
staci is starting to piss me off. what the fuck i did to her is beyond me. i know she wasnt home last night- exactly where she was i dont know.. but the only place she doesnt get service is her house. i tried calling her all day yesterday and today. hell i even text'd nick saying "if your with staci, tell her to call me when you get this." and she sends me a text at around 6 this morning. she doesnt call back at all today.. it's really starting to get to me now. she's one of the few friends i have left and she's doing a fan-fucking-tastic job of dicking me over all the damn time. i am seriously mad at her. why shouldn't i be? hell.. what if i really needed a best friend to talk to because i was on the verge of killing myself. fuck that. if she wont call me, i wont call her. i'll take her off my contacts in my cell phone so i wont even have the urge to call her. im tired of putting myself out there when i get nothing in return.
i talked to big dan on the way home from the BWI the other night. i told him i just wont be as persistent anymore. i try so damn hard and get nothing.
it's not like anyone fucking gives a rats ass.
fuck this. i think im going to the gym.