* i melt, everythine you look at me that way. it never fails. any time, any place . . .
i love the way i lose it everytime. . .
[[ this entry is full of the things on my mind and what's been goin' on lately. yes, it may offend people. take it for what it's worth, and if you don't wanna read, that's fine. you can't say i didn't warn you.]]
so, i'm sittin' here on a solemn sunday afternoon. mind full of thoughts, heart's full of emotions, and all i can seem to do is curl up with a blank look on my face, almost like i have no purpose even being awake today. not quite sure what has made me feel this way. perhaps, i'm just emotionally drained. yesterday took a toll on me. but it's days like those that knock me back to where i should be. i need that. even though i curse myself for every tear that drips down my face, i do realize that it's something that makes me the person that i am. for once, it wasn't something that happened between friends. it was something else. and this is the extent of the elaboration on that situation.
friday was great. i took the morning off from school. had lunch with whitney and joyce. then headed to jjk, i completely shoulda stayed home all day long. i hated the whole time i was there. attitudes. gosh, if some people would just come down off their 'holier than thou' throne, things would go much smoother. i don't think i can really take much more of it. it's not just the smart-ass comments, it's just the whole concept of "i'm in a bad mood, so everyone else needs to be, too." gah, that erks me so bad. yeah, i have my smart-ass tendencies, but i don't try to bring others down on my bad days, but whatever. it's just whatever.
today, i've gotta go to the democratic rally in bsg. yay. do you feel the sarcasm? yes, i realize it is my duty to my club, but still. this is very valuable nap time. geez.
whitney and i have decided that next sunday needs to be spent in bristol at tinseltown, for radio and in the cut. now whether or not those plans actually follow through....well, who knows.
wow. i really feel bad today. no energy. weak. just blah. ahh well...life throws you curve balls when you don't want 'em. however, this week looks bright. half day tomorrow, no school on tuesday, campus tour on wednesday, senior night on friday (followed by a dance). doesn't look too bad.
* sigh * i'm through, i do believe. gotta finish gettin ready so i can head to big stone.
you kids be good.
♥
-nic
i never even had a chance, ya know. you had me from 'hello.' *