im happy
Last night was the best night I have had in a very loooooong time. I went to Agora cafe and had like a hazel nut coffee, with my friend joel. It was really cool I really expressed myself, which I cant do to too many ppl. I told him that when I get outta school I want to paint a square just full of black with a circle in the middle that is white nothing in it just plain. I want ppl to know that if your mind and life is negative which is the black part that whatever makes you happy is the white circle. To me that white circle is filled with my sister. As you know she's one years old. Yal' are probably saying why do you feel it with your sister if she doesn't even talk, but she does. (teary eyeed) shes the only one that makes me happy and when I come home from schol shes the only person I want to see. Not my ma not my dad anyone..... shes the only positive thing in my life. I love her very much shes the person I look foward to go to the lake house with or to one of my ma's lectures. I dont knoow.... but I want ppl to see that you can make your life happy again if it wasn't before. It was hard for me b/c I have gone through so much in my life but I thank the ppl that have put up with my bitch attitude but in life you have to be a bitch to make ppl understand you b/c I know at lAMAR HIGH not one god damn person knows the real brittany so if you think you know the reason why I am the way I am then fuck all of yal' b/c you dont NOONE DOES!
hELLO jOEL
hELLO jOEL