Hey you!
What happened to you...? When did you start getting that inflated head that eventually drove us apart? Why are you now one of the biggest asses I've ever met? When did it all start? Why did it happen? Did you just get too cool for the rest of us? For me? Why?
When did you start being such a pain in the ass?
I barely remember whose fault it was now. I don't even know if you threw the first stone. Maybe you did, maybe I did. I don't remember, I really don't. I wish we could've just threw that all away. I hate the fact that you're now too awesome and cool for us.
I wonder if you do the same thing I do.. Look through old entries and just sit down and cry, wondering what happened to both of us. Maybe you don't. Maybe all you know now is that I was the one at fault, I was the one who ruined things. I don't know. I really don't.
I put it in my memories, yknow. That entry you said was dear to you. Is it? Is it still? I don't think so. I hope someday, you look over at this LJ and see this entry.
If I ever see you again, I have no idea what I'm gonna do.
Mebbe I'll beat you up, maybe I won't but if you were to see me right now, I'd probably ask you those things I said in the first paragraph.
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EDIT: The next day.
Who knew I actually had so much to say to you? I do have a lot and gods above, I want you to see this someday. Ten days, months, years later, I don't care. I want you to see this entry and look back and remember me and see that no matter what I did, I truly am not capable of hate and I'm actually just sitting here crying over what we had.
I miss you, goddammit all, I miss you.
I miss hanging around with you.
I miss talking to you.
Um.. I don't miss your OCs.
I just miss you.
I wish we were talking again. You're online, I'm online, this was the first time I cried in front of anyone and let them touch me. I miss you so much I let down my guard. What happened between us? I wish I could just take it all away and go back to who we were. I wish I knew who was at fault. I wish you would've listened to me and Saki when we said we wouldn't abandon you. There are so many things that could have gone right if we both listened. But no, we were both stubborn gits.
I guess it all begins with one little word:
I'm sorry. I'm sorry for everything that was my fault. I'm sorry for everything that made things worse. I'm sorry that my patience ran thin. I'm sorry.. I really am.
Your turn.
This entry's on public so that maybe one day, you get to see it.
When did you start being such a pain in the ass?
I barely remember whose fault it was now. I don't even know if you threw the first stone. Maybe you did, maybe I did. I don't remember, I really don't. I wish we could've just threw that all away. I hate the fact that you're now too awesome and cool for us.
I wonder if you do the same thing I do.. Look through old entries and just sit down and cry, wondering what happened to both of us. Maybe you don't. Maybe all you know now is that I was the one at fault, I was the one who ruined things. I don't know. I really don't.
I put it in my memories, yknow. That entry you said was dear to you. Is it? Is it still? I don't think so. I hope someday, you look over at this LJ and see this entry.
If I ever see you again, I have no idea what I'm gonna do.
Mebbe I'll beat you up, maybe I won't but if you were to see me right now, I'd probably ask you those things I said in the first paragraph.
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EDIT: The next day.
Who knew I actually had so much to say to you? I do have a lot and gods above, I want you to see this someday. Ten days, months, years later, I don't care. I want you to see this entry and look back and remember me and see that no matter what I did, I truly am not capable of hate and I'm actually just sitting here crying over what we had.
I miss you, goddammit all, I miss you.
I miss hanging around with you.
I miss talking to you.
Um.. I don't miss your OCs.
I just miss you.
I wish we were talking again. You're online, I'm online, this was the first time I cried in front of anyone and let them touch me. I miss you so much I let down my guard. What happened between us? I wish I could just take it all away and go back to who we were. I wish I knew who was at fault. I wish you would've listened to me and Saki when we said we wouldn't abandon you. There are so many things that could have gone right if we both listened. But no, we were both stubborn gits.
I guess it all begins with one little word:
I'm sorry. I'm sorry for everything that was my fault. I'm sorry for everything that made things worse. I'm sorry that my patience ran thin. I'm sorry.. I really am.
Your turn.
This entry's on public so that maybe one day, you get to see it.