Sellout
Man, this is tough. I need to reply to an email from my boss with the proposal she sent me for what they will offer if I will stay until next September.
It's enough money that I just can't turn it down. I mean like a 10% raise. A LOT of money. Money which we could certainly use, especially with Casey starting to job-hunt (he's getting way burned out at his current job, and the constant lifting of people to feed and change them is taking it's toll on his body; he had a hernia, and he already has osteopenia, so it's clear he needs a less physical day). He promised that if I will stay at my job until next September, he will have a new job which pays him more by then.
There's also the economy scare factor: both of my parents are really fucked as a result of this economic crisis. My Dad will probably lose his home in the next 3-5 years (when they run out of savings to pay the mortgage) and my Mom expects to lose her job by the end of this month. With that kind of instability, I feel as though I should really take what is an amazing offer given the rising unemployment rates. Yes, people always need childcare, but no, people don't always need a nanny. Daycare is cheaper.
Lastly, since I would only be giving them another 9 month commitment (as opposed to the required one year commitment with a new family) we won't have to take any time off from trying to conceive. Donor is 90% sure he will not be going to Ethiopia after all, because his contact there hasn't sent him his plane ticket yet and he's supposed to be leaving in 2 weeks. So he'll be around, and without that one year commitment, I won't have to hold of for several months just in case something works out in the beginning of the year and I actually get pregnant.
I know all these are good reasons, but DAMN I was ready to be done! I was so ready to move on and do something new and quit dealing with these peoples' idiosyncrasies. I know that I'm signing myself up for another loooooooong summer and another one of DadBoss's furloughs where he is home all day and drives me nuts. For more weekly cat vomiting to clean up. For more time with bosses who cannot discuss things objectively and feel the need to bring up their childhoods and other inappropriate information when we have serious meetings.
Oh well. I can tough it out for a little while longer, and then it will be my turn to take it easier while Casey is the breadwinner for a while.
Other bonus: not only will I be making a lot more money, but I will be leaving earlier in the evening too so I can get home earlier! Yay!
It's enough money that I just can't turn it down. I mean like a 10% raise. A LOT of money. Money which we could certainly use, especially with Casey starting to job-hunt (he's getting way burned out at his current job, and the constant lifting of people to feed and change them is taking it's toll on his body; he had a hernia, and he already has osteopenia, so it's clear he needs a less physical day). He promised that if I will stay at my job until next September, he will have a new job which pays him more by then.
There's also the economy scare factor: both of my parents are really fucked as a result of this economic crisis. My Dad will probably lose his home in the next 3-5 years (when they run out of savings to pay the mortgage) and my Mom expects to lose her job by the end of this month. With that kind of instability, I feel as though I should really take what is an amazing offer given the rising unemployment rates. Yes, people always need childcare, but no, people don't always need a nanny. Daycare is cheaper.
Lastly, since I would only be giving them another 9 month commitment (as opposed to the required one year commitment with a new family) we won't have to take any time off from trying to conceive. Donor is 90% sure he will not be going to Ethiopia after all, because his contact there hasn't sent him his plane ticket yet and he's supposed to be leaving in 2 weeks. So he'll be around, and without that one year commitment, I won't have to hold of for several months just in case something works out in the beginning of the year and I actually get pregnant.
I know all these are good reasons, but DAMN I was ready to be done! I was so ready to move on and do something new and quit dealing with these peoples' idiosyncrasies. I know that I'm signing myself up for another loooooooong summer and another one of DadBoss's furloughs where he is home all day and drives me nuts. For more weekly cat vomiting to clean up. For more time with bosses who cannot discuss things objectively and feel the need to bring up their childhoods and other inappropriate information when we have serious meetings.
Oh well. I can tough it out for a little while longer, and then it will be my turn to take it easier while Casey is the breadwinner for a while.
Other bonus: not only will I be making a lot more money, but I will be leaving earlier in the evening too so I can get home earlier! Yay!