(no subject)
lots of stuff happenin!
awesome weekend...awesome shows...awesome people!YAY!
spoke to rach again today! changing my mind on what i want to do! lookin at all diff places on the net and it is killing me! it is just so hard to decide and at the same time to even leave this place! i just wish i could scoop up all the beautiful people here and take them with me..but fact is it aint guna happen and i have to deal! going away is exactly that gettin away from all the things i know and love and taking a step into the unknown and experiencing learning and loving new things. i know once i take the first step i wont regret it i am just finding it hard to think about the idea of leaving such a wonderful bunch of people behind and takin on the world on my lonesome! i am horrified...sick to the stomach...i have never been on a big plane..never left australia...been to sydney that is as far as i have been...eeeek...oh well....there is only one way to change it and well that is what i plan to do i guess....
so thinkin of purchasing a round the world ticket now....just as much as a return to london....just a little more exciting, costly and scary! but it is just another option i have! the world is my playground at the moment and all i want to do is make up my mind! i want to do it all see it all and have the most fun i can while i am at it! but i have to start somewhere and i just have to decide where that somewhere is!
saw shibs heaps this weekend it was mad! good catchin up and we should do it more often! altho she did break up with be when she was leaving! biatch haha! much love!
saw and had conversations with a lot of people i did not expect to talk to...stange and scary but still..i think sometimes i am too nice.. and should just stop thiking about other peoples feelings but sometimes i am a mega bitch and should mind my own buisness and not rub shit in peoples faces...i believe in karma too much. sometimes i just want to punch people in the head..sometimes i want to grab people and shake and pinch them until they wake up...i should learn to stop thinking but i cant help it! ah i suck. ok i am angry at myself for bothering to keep peace when i should just throw a few more punches..but violence is not the answer....but i think i am even i think it is fair it still kills me inside cos people want to know people want talk about it when we are in the same place.i understand but its almost beena fuckin year i am over it please dont keep bringing up the pain dotn keep askin what happend...its over its done...move on! i have!..rah rah rah....yes i am quite emotional today. so much shit is going on in other peoples lives i just feel like a boring bug on the wall watchin everything that happens wondering when something interesting will happen to me...normally my life is full of crazy shit...i used to think it was a bad thing...now i am beginning to realise that it is not such a bad thing after all! gimme some action people!
awesome weekend...awesome shows...awesome people!YAY!
spoke to rach again today! changing my mind on what i want to do! lookin at all diff places on the net and it is killing me! it is just so hard to decide and at the same time to even leave this place! i just wish i could scoop up all the beautiful people here and take them with me..but fact is it aint guna happen and i have to deal! going away is exactly that gettin away from all the things i know and love and taking a step into the unknown and experiencing learning and loving new things. i know once i take the first step i wont regret it i am just finding it hard to think about the idea of leaving such a wonderful bunch of people behind and takin on the world on my lonesome! i am horrified...sick to the stomach...i have never been on a big plane..never left australia...been to sydney that is as far as i have been...eeeek...oh well....there is only one way to change it and well that is what i plan to do i guess....
so thinkin of purchasing a round the world ticket now....just as much as a return to london....just a little more exciting, costly and scary! but it is just another option i have! the world is my playground at the moment and all i want to do is make up my mind! i want to do it all see it all and have the most fun i can while i am at it! but i have to start somewhere and i just have to decide where that somewhere is!
saw shibs heaps this weekend it was mad! good catchin up and we should do it more often! altho she did break up with be when she was leaving! biatch haha! much love!
saw and had conversations with a lot of people i did not expect to talk to...stange and scary but still..i think sometimes i am too nice.. and should just stop thiking about other peoples feelings but sometimes i am a mega bitch and should mind my own buisness and not rub shit in peoples faces...i believe in karma too much. sometimes i just want to punch people in the head..sometimes i want to grab people and shake and pinch them until they wake up...i should learn to stop thinking but i cant help it! ah i suck. ok i am angry at myself for bothering to keep peace when i should just throw a few more punches..but violence is not the answer....but i think i am even i think it is fair it still kills me inside cos people want to know people want talk about it when we are in the same place.i understand but its almost beena fuckin year i am over it please dont keep bringing up the pain dotn keep askin what happend...its over its done...move on! i have!..rah rah rah....yes i am quite emotional today. so much shit is going on in other peoples lives i just feel like a boring bug on the wall watchin everything that happens wondering when something interesting will happen to me...normally my life is full of crazy shit...i used to think it was a bad thing...now i am beginning to realise that it is not such a bad thing after all! gimme some action people!