♋ PCG 21; backdated to December 25

[crusthatecean]

[Phone; Action for 842 Hastings]

[Karkat has been staying at Sollux's ever since Gamzee lost his shit midway through the Christmas stuff. He's been keeping a low profile and avoiding everyone except Sollux. He's still sore and impacted by his injuries, which have been stitched and bandaged up but still have left him bruised and hurting. It's less

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[foretastes]

... Karkat?

[crusthatecean]

Hey.

[foretastes]

Karkat, I'm sorry. I'm really sorry for everything that happened, I don't even know what was going on, it was like I became a whole new person.

[crusthatecean]

Wow, I didn't notice, I thought that was just your normal self.

God, I don't need to hear your apology. None of this would have happened if I hadn't been such an idiot about that dream. Or in your case, I think Tavros and Sollux may be the ones to blame, so fuck those guys.

[foretastes]

How can you act like any of it was your fault? I can't believe the person I would've been in a world like that.

[crusthatecean]

So you'd be a complete psychopath asshole if only basically every detail of your life was different. How many people can say that isn't true? God, I mean...I wouldn't expect a stranger to see that and not react the way both of you did, okay?

I shouldn't have let Mayfield make me a stranger. At the least, I could have guessed about Gamzee.

[foretastes]

...I said all those awful things about you. About your blood color.

[crusthatecean]

Do I look like a sensitive little wiggler in need of coddling? Quick, get my lusus to cover my sponge clots because someone said something mean.

You can say what you want, I don't care.

[Obvious lies, of course, but he's trying to believe it himself. It wasn't the words, anyway. It's the way they all looked at him that he can't get out of his head.]

[foretastes]

But I hurt you. And that's not how I really feel, I think red is beautiful and... [she doesn't even know, now. she feels horrible about the entire thing.]

[crusthatecean]

I know that's not how you feel.

[His tone softens just a little.]

This is just one of those things. One of those Mayfield things. You didn't hurt me badly and it wasn't your fault, so I'd prefer to just move on from it, but I don't want you beating yourself up over something that doesn't bother me.

[foretastes]

[she can't bring herself to believe that, not entirely. and-]

It bothers me.

[crusthatecean]

Sorry.

[He is; he feels guilty for making her upset on his behalf.]

I just...I don't need anyone acting like I'm fucking fragile. You didn't do anything that isn't going to heal, and I'm not so fucking vulnerable that you need to worry about me taking too seriously things you said while you were out of your pan.

[foretastes]

[feeling a little sick anyway.]

...can I visit?

[crusthatecean]

Yeah.

I'm at Sollux's. But I have to deal with Gamzee, so maybe meet at my place?

[foretastes]

Yeah, okay. Um, what's going on with Gamz?

[crusthatecean]

I don't know. He's back to normal, he sounds upset about losing his shit and beating me with a club. Go figure.