♋ PCG 20

[crusthatecean]

[Action, 1338 Benny Road]

[Karkat wakes up unable to shake the memory of his dream. He has nightmares regularly, a combination of sleeping without a recuperacoon and everything he's been through since he began playing Sgrub. But something about this one felt more real and vivid and awful, and he remembers it more clearly

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[misterwwizard]

Well Kar she was just so convincin' an' really think about it if I hadn't existed the matriorb wouldn't have gotten destroyed an' I wouldn't be feelin' all isolated from everyone!

[Welcome to Eridan logic.]

[crusthatecean]

Eridan, you're a fucking idiot. I know about that shit already.

[But his tone is surprisingly warm compared to all of their recent interactions. Eridan seems like a fake to him, but he knows what that probably means. Eridan erased himself for all of them.]

No one asked you to fall for this typical Mayfield bullshit. None of you should have gone along with this, not even you.

[misterwwizard]

Kar, I wanted to be a hero...The entire world looked so happy without me. Even Fef...I was the only one holdin' her back from achievin' her dreams... As much as I've never really believed in it, I wanted it to happen. An' Jade too... she looked like she could fuckin' soar with how much weight was lifted off a' her shoulders.

An' she's gone too...an' sol... replaced by fuckin' fakes. I'll never fuckin' see any a' them again. I'll never even fuckin' see the real you again! Replaced by some fuckin' fakey fake magic bullshit. Fuck... I bet Fef's fuckin' fake self hates me for what I fuckin' did.

Nep told me... An' she did her whole sad kitty cat thing an' well that's really fuckin' hard to say no to Kar! Especially when she's strokin' my ego.

[crusthatecean]

God, you're pathetic even in your dreams. Hey, asshole, did you ever think that if you're not really gone and a fake, no one else is either?

You already died once for what you did. That's more than I ever really wanted you to. I can admit to that because you can't be sure this is the real me.

[misterwwizard]

Well, I never really thought a' it that way Kar. Maybe I just got lucky or maybe I was just too fuckin' good to be gone for good. An' what if what you're sayin's just the fakey fake version of you wants me to believe!

What if they're not though, what if Fef's really gone for good?

You... you mean it Kar? That even though I did horrible fuckin' things, you still didn't want me to die...? An' since we're admittin' things because you can't be sure it's the real fuckin' me, I... actually kind a' like the scarf Kan gave me.

[crusthatecean]

I know it's you. Don't confess things to me, I don't want to hear about it.

Believe what you want, it doesn't matter much, but any idiot can see what's happening here.

[misterwwizard]

They're tryin' to turn us against... us?

[crusthatecean]

They're trying to isolate all of the self-important piles of shit who took their obvious pathetic bargain by 'erasing' us only from the perspective of our friends.

All of us are here. We just don't seem that way.

[misterwwizard]

So... Fef's alright too? An' Sol? We're all here an' well? Even though they said we're all gone, good as dead? I mean that's all good an' well to say but Kar I'm a man a' science. I need some fuckin' proof. that you're all the real you an' not some bullshit.

[crusthatecean]

As far as I can determine, that's the case.

But no, I can't prove it.

[misterwwizard]

If Fef an' I kiss I'm sure I'll be able to tell a faker from a real one!

Wonderin' if that applies to everyone else...

[crusthatecean]

I can't even tell you what a load of squirming maggot meat that is. They can't we're fake or real on such a stupid basis.

[Someone's upset his matesprit and moirail don't recognize him.]

Just use your pan. Either, magically, you're the only one who is real and everyone else was replaced with fakes that people are responding to just like they respond to you, or none of us disappeared.

[misterwwizard]

[Eridan, for a change... actually listens. That explanation seems like a shot in the dark... but to keep himself from feeling that pit of despair that caused him to go into his murderous rage... it's worth it.]

Well, Kar, when you're puttin' it that way I can sort a' see it...I really want to be believin' it's really you... an' if that logic is the only thing keepin' me from fallin' into a lonely despair devoid a' all hope...

[crusthatecean]

If I'm the only thing keeping you from hopeless despair, good luck.

[misterwwizard]

You're not the only thing... I hope you're not.

[crusthatecean]

I was being facetious, I know I'm not. God. Go talk to Feferi and stop being hideous in my direction, I'm in too bad a mood for this.

[pausing]

But okay, I will grudgingly say, thanks for being willing to disappear forever for us, asshole. Don't ever pull this kind of shit again.