c o n f u s s i o n ?
I'm more confused than a someone trying to figure out if they're gay or not :-/ I had a long weekend only had school twice this week didnt have any thurs or fri hung out with ash, susie & adam basically all weekend its rele quite strange I knew he used to like ashley and it NEVER bothered me til about a week ago I get upset when he flirts with ash and then when he does with me I feel like its my fault cuz he "thinks" I like him so I feel like..... gosh I cant even explain it fuck it anyways.... today for the first time since I could remember my whole family was together for my aunt's memorial we put her ashes in a stream in west greenwich its nice up there and one of my other aunt's wrote a poem for her my aunt who lives with me bough roses for everyone to throw in the stream and it was my cousin jake's mom he has no parents he was actually crying and I've never seen him cry he was shaking too I felt sorry for him we told him it was ok to cry just to let it all out which is true if you dont cry then you'll just make yourself sick for holding in all the pain and sadness he's leaving to go back to the marines om saturday morning so friday night we're all having a going away party for him at my house theres gunna be like 28 people its gunna be crazy