hmmm what to do
so we haven't fought in a week and half...she hasn't left me for this damn thing in a week...something is seriously wrong here. There are a lot of rough times around these parts and when i got home a mutual friend of ours and s were talking, and not that any of it really had or has to do with me although just a few short days ago it very much did. S and i started our circus a little to early i think... and i found myself thinking today about s feeling like she is wearing a ball and chain and missing her bachelor days....i suppose i didn't really have any bachelor days myself but i don't really feel as though they were necessary although... i'm thinking about this right now. we're doing alright right now but how temporary is this... i'm having a really hard time keeping my jealousy at bay and am working on distancing myself...finding my way back to myself but is sucks because i don't know how much of what i want to be will mesh well with what i am, truly, deeply inside myself.
go suck a fuck.
go suck a fuck.