Grew up way too fast now theres nothing to believe
I just got back from Church it was pretty fun. Im glad that there is someone like Luke there. Im glad I have a friend like him theres barely anything I dont like about him. Great person to talk to. I never realized how long If been feeling loney, I want a "special" guy in my life to come along and sweep me off my feet. ALl those relationships that last a short amount of time were useless. Curse men and their hormones. For once I just want to find a guy who just doesnt want "sexual pleasure". I want to find a guy who will respect me for the person I am today. Ever teen movie have those cute little perfect high school romances, ya wouldnt that be nice. I make a commitment that Im not gonna go out with a guy who is a burnout or an asshole. I want some one who makes me happy inside and out and makes me wanna feel like a better person. If found one or 2 of these guys. In fact I used to be great friends with them we had a small fling,we both knew we liked each other and it just had to end because thats how it goes for me. No this Guy has changed and his ego is bigger than his head and he doesnt give a crap about me anymore, Its disapointing because I remeber how happy I was. I want it back but its hopeless so I gotta let it go. Boy is it hard. But hey I shouldnt let something like this bring me down. I have the greatest friends, good family, I have a bunch of stuff i dont need. Ive been blessed. Why should I let something like this bring me down. Tomorrow is another day. Im gonna have fun with Luke. I guess I best be off... Goodnight