blocked off.
dammit i want to write, but i cant seem to get my thoughts on to this.. keyboard? either way im full of thoughts... one too many. it feels somewhat like im suffocating my brain. i need to let it out!
oooh dammit.. i tried, and no good. maybe later?
ok its later:
ugh i have a cold sore? im not sure first it was a zit by my lip and then it turned into a cold sore. whatever im not happy with it. it looks like i have a fat lip.
my face is disgusting these days and the more i wash it the less it changes, i dont understand how that works.
my attempts at getting a job have come to a stop i've realized im probably not going to get a job because, a)i suck.
b)i have no experience and
c)i dont do working with people.
so arent i shit out of luck. however will i make it in this ever so changing crazy world???
then i just feel i cant change any of this to work for me, why? dammit whyyyy?!!! i'm so useless, and im not even saying it in a depressed manner which is usually the case.
what to doooo?? what to doooo??
i guess ive wanted this for so long and now that its here i cant figure out what to do and how to do it. or do i even want or like it at all???
uuh still useless. what good am i really? ask my friends, my family.. i do nothing but complain, whine, yell, and ask for things without ever earning it just getting it.
daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhh grrrrrrrr.
and the thing is i dont want to depend on anyone, well i dont depend on anyone they just have a responsiblity to give me money, food, and clothes haha.
oh fuckaa, im goin nowhere... very slowly.
help!
oooh dammit.. i tried, and no good. maybe later?
ok its later:
ugh i have a cold sore? im not sure first it was a zit by my lip and then it turned into a cold sore. whatever im not happy with it. it looks like i have a fat lip.
my face is disgusting these days and the more i wash it the less it changes, i dont understand how that works.
my attempts at getting a job have come to a stop i've realized im probably not going to get a job because, a)i suck.
b)i have no experience and
c)i dont do working with people.
so arent i shit out of luck. however will i make it in this ever so changing crazy world???
then i just feel i cant change any of this to work for me, why? dammit whyyyy?!!! i'm so useless, and im not even saying it in a depressed manner which is usually the case.
what to doooo?? what to doooo??
i guess ive wanted this for so long and now that its here i cant figure out what to do and how to do it. or do i even want or like it at all???
uuh still useless. what good am i really? ask my friends, my family.. i do nothing but complain, whine, yell, and ask for things without ever earning it just getting it.
daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhh grrrrrrrr.
and the thing is i dont want to depend on anyone, well i dont depend on anyone they just have a responsiblity to give me money, food, and clothes haha.
oh fuckaa, im goin nowhere... very slowly.
help!