the end
well i'm about to move out in a week. if i move back home i'll be forced to get 2 jobs if the 1 doesnt pay enough. i'll have to obey without question my fathers "rules". its going to be alot like prison. if i wanted to go out one night and he sees it as "unreasonable" just to go hang out with my friends. i cant go or i wont be let back in. if i could find somewhere to go where i could get a job and live i would but i think my life has come to a dead end. i can either giveup all i have so he can do what he thinks is in my "best interest", or i can go find a place to stay and get a shitty job and pay rent or what ever i can and be able to have some freedom however shitty it may be. i dont know how to act on this. kaitlyn i dont want i'm not aiming this at you and its not about anyone but me. i know you mean well, but i know what your going to say and your problly right. i think i may have a depression issue, i find myself depressed alot. i think if i just end it everything would be better for everyone. i thought about it on the way home. if i just got my car to 90 and hit a cement wall it would solve everyones problems with me. i'm venting this so i dont want anyone yelling at me or getting up on a soapbox. thats all for now i guess....