scared as fuckbeans
i hate being nervous to even be in my moms own house. i wish they didn't go down the shore because then i wouldn't care if he was here but i don't know if he is or isn't and my stomache is not developed for being nervous like this so obviously i'm freaking out like usual. and kippy isn't helping one bit but i think i'm going to kidnap him again for the time being. I AM SO FUCKING EXCITED FOR TOMORROW IT ISN'T EVEN FUCKING FUNNY. ahhhh :-) i really hope i don't look like an ass fuck because that would suck alot since i'm excited like whoa for this to happen. usually when i look forward to things for a long time they don't happen so i just gotta calm down and not think about it. yesturday sucked. i chilled at the beach for a few hours with lissy and jules (sister bonding) and that was cute but then at work i wanted to stab myself in the face. and after work too. and now my mom adn sisters are down the shore and i am here. aww. we used to all go down the shore but SOMEBODY HAD TO BE A FUCKING BIG FUCK DYKE ASSHOLE alrigth i apologize i'm done *movingon* yesturday 2 of the most random people called me (well 3 but xxx)NICOLE and CHIKI so we'll see what happens. except with chiki i know what's going to happen b/c she's my cutie and i love her and miss her like whoa. hopefully i'll actually get to see her soon because i hate going so long without it and then it's all awkward and blahblah but today is a day for DATING WEDNESDAY :-) and i can't wait till lil bebe comes wherever he is i gotta bugaloo down to papas and get ready for my day and i get to see all the fucking cool bugs in my house that are fucking discusting i'd rather sweat balls in the heat then have a fucking moth hang out with me all night while i'm trying to watch conan. enough bitching --->moral of this story: BRACES OFF TOMORROW EEE !!!