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I haven't written for years.
It's not that I haven't wanted to, it's that I have finally after so long learned to depend on myself. Words did not have to be my crutch anymore, I could breathe.
But now, the breathing is hard. The world overwhelming and again, words are needed to clear the moments in my head. For so long, I have been the broken one, the abused. It was I who cried out for help and who looked in shame at all I had become. And now, those years have paid off, for once, I can use it all to help another. But how?
Every thing he says is a parallel to a moment in my life. a disaster that I overcame. I have forgotten all that I was in return for all that I am.
And the tables are turned, I just dont know how to sit on the other side.
ill learn.
i have to.
It's not that I haven't wanted to, it's that I have finally after so long learned to depend on myself. Words did not have to be my crutch anymore, I could breathe.
But now, the breathing is hard. The world overwhelming and again, words are needed to clear the moments in my head. For so long, I have been the broken one, the abused. It was I who cried out for help and who looked in shame at all I had become. And now, those years have paid off, for once, I can use it all to help another. But how?
Every thing he says is a parallel to a moment in my life. a disaster that I overcame. I have forgotten all that I was in return for all that I am.
And the tables are turned, I just dont know how to sit on the other side.
ill learn.
i have to.