"At least I'm not killing my kid."
I wish I could be okay. But this is what I'm stuck with for now. I have nothing to look forward to. No moving at least for a month. No boyfriend. My sister isn't coming to my graduation. I have no way to work up there now because I can't drive an hour there and an hour back five days a week. And there's nothing besides fast food here. I don't have a best friend, really. I mean kind of but not one I can ever see. One works 3-11 Monday through Friday and spends most of the rest of the time at Danny's. Which I mean thats cool cus he's moving there but that place does't have to be the only place he goes. And Allison's in Arkansas still. She might be coming back up for awhile, which would be fuckin amazing. If not I'm gonna see how much money I end up with from graduation and try to make it down there. Maybe move there still depending on what kind of situation they're dealing with when I get there. Dunno what my other options are right now, really. Mom says I can stay as long as I want, but I can't really. Wish I wouldn't have given up all my other options for that asshole...