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Fuck this. There's nothing I can do now that will make me even somewhat happy. I can't go to UNO or UNK and be happy with it. I'm thinking about going to Peru or doing online classes through somewhere. You really fucked up everything that I had planned for next year, and however long after that. Don't tell me that you want all this bullshit when you don't. Especially when it's because I'm apparently completely fucking helpless, even though you agreed that I'm nothing like I was a year ago. And that was the only fuckin reason you gave me. So there's more you're not telling me. Or something. If you don't wanna do any of this then just tell me. I don't want to stay up there FOR YOU, to just have you tell me a few months later that you changed your mind. I already did that. And you fucked me over. And I really have no faith in you to not do it again. I trusted you for almost a year, and I had no reason not to. Then you give me two huge reasons in a month. I have no idea what to think about any of this, and I don't want to talk to you because I don't trust you.
I know you didn't have my number written down, you didn't forget it. You called on the seventh. You knew it would get to me. I don't want to care but I miss you.
I know you didn't have my number written down, you didn't forget it. You called on the seventh. You knew it would get to me. I don't want to care but I miss you.