i don't really know myself
ewww livejournal just makes me want to spit the same spit i've been spitting for the past 6 months! and i don't talk to anyone really, lately. so i just go to these stupid websites and write the same pointless shiatte that i've put everywhere else and that i can't stop thinking about, and its hella boring. and like i'm so done w/ it and at thesame time im being such a frickin girl. "cos you cant keep a secret if it never was a secret to start" that is so true w/ my life right now. pff, but "the purpose of a journal is not to advertise yourself" according to someone who used to be a good friend o' mine. But i dont really think thats true. it's entirely about advertising yourself. how else would people know? nobody asks the questions that lead to the things that you really want to say.
a few nights ago me and this boy that i really dig were talking about the girl he likes and her boyfriend, and how she talks shit about him and is gonna break up w/ him, and that she really likes my boy. and i just cant help but think about the boy she's gonna dummmp. like that sucks. he's gonna be heartbroken. but why should i care? he's just some guy. who couldnt hold on to a girl that pisses me off just because some guy i'm not gonna remember in 5 years thinks she's amazing. or whatever he thinks. who cares. tomorrow i'm gonna..i dont know what i'm gonna do tomorrow. I guess talk to him. or something. i'm too scared i think. but we'll see....
i wish i could write poetry again. i found this one that i wrote hellaaa days ago and it really freaked me out cos its the exact same feeling i'm feeling right now. and its just weird cos like...all i do is live the same scenario over and over again? but it doesnt feel like deja vu until you center in on the vibes. i dunno. but it made me wonder why people fall in love at all. its so scary! mlahhh
one day imma get me some courage!
...help?
a few nights ago me and this boy that i really dig were talking about the girl he likes and her boyfriend, and how she talks shit about him and is gonna break up w/ him, and that she really likes my boy. and i just cant help but think about the boy she's gonna dummmp. like that sucks. he's gonna be heartbroken. but why should i care? he's just some guy. who couldnt hold on to a girl that pisses me off just because some guy i'm not gonna remember in 5 years thinks she's amazing. or whatever he thinks. who cares. tomorrow i'm gonna..i dont know what i'm gonna do tomorrow. I guess talk to him. or something. i'm too scared i think. but we'll see....
i wish i could write poetry again. i found this one that i wrote hellaaa days ago and it really freaked me out cos its the exact same feeling i'm feeling right now. and its just weird cos like...all i do is live the same scenario over and over again? but it doesnt feel like deja vu until you center in on the vibes. i dunno. but it made me wonder why people fall in love at all. its so scary! mlahhh
one day imma get me some courage!
...help?