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im so tired of being beaten before i start, and putting my head in my hands and just feeling like i want to cry and not being able to because i tell myself im an idiot
i hate how i have to be the instigator with everyone
maybe i want you to ask ME to hang out once in a while
and it would be really nice if i didnt have to get mad about having to tell you that
i am sick of loving someone who is an asshole
its so irritating
and it makes me really sad
and nobody gets it, including me
shit son! i just want people to act like they want to be with me once in awhile!
instead of waiting for ME to kiss them or call them or talk to them or ANYTHING.
i just want to throw my hands up in the air and FORGET HIM and forget the whole thing, but i cant and it pisses me off that i dont have enough resolve to do it, and that one of the reasons i dont is because there is no one out there who can make me forget about him the way i need to
a christmas gift to get me:
independence
i hate how i have to be the instigator with everyone
maybe i want you to ask ME to hang out once in a while
and it would be really nice if i didnt have to get mad about having to tell you that
i am sick of loving someone who is an asshole
its so irritating
and it makes me really sad
and nobody gets it, including me
shit son! i just want people to act like they want to be with me once in awhile!
instead of waiting for ME to kiss them or call them or talk to them or ANYTHING.
i just want to throw my hands up in the air and FORGET HIM and forget the whole thing, but i cant and it pisses me off that i dont have enough resolve to do it, and that one of the reasons i dont is because there is no one out there who can make me forget about him the way i need to
a christmas gift to get me:
independence