what am i getting myself into?

[cruey]

Some of the things i get myself into is horrible!!!! So i just got over this girl i had been in love with since 7th grade....... Was happy i moved on......starting talking to this other girl.........Now i think im doing the same damn thing.......we are not together at all we are just "friends" but anytime she mentions another guy or anytime she doesnt answer her phone i get so jealous!!!! for example: Spa's apartment(shek can back this up) i called her and i was like hey what up and she was like im drunk i cant talk...then this guy gets on the phone and is acting like a drunk retard which i was drunk too whcih didnt help the situation! then i said...who is this and he said it doesnt matter.... i said yes it does... let me fuc*ing talk to (*****) ...... and he said she will talk to you later... at this point the alcohol started talking for me!!!! i said....listen fuc*er let me talk to her now or i will fly my ass to Vegas and kick your fat ass and kick your chest throught your back!!! lol yeah i sure did lol then i got off the phone and threw my phone against laurens wall and now my phone rattles and sometime shuts off!!!

after that you would think i would never speak to her again but NO im done and now Im leaving Thurs and driving to Vegas with her!!!! then im flying back Mon!! please tell me why im doing this when i knowthashe takes advantage of me! i cant help it///everytime \she makes me mad i swear its over but then she calls and want me to go eat or....whatever! and im like well/......shes sorry!!! then she does the same thing! IM GOING TO VEGAS THURS!!!! what the hell anywat im drunk and i prob typed this where NO one can read it but i had to get this off my chest!! love to all......good night