story time.
it's the age-old story which i don't quite understand.
you know what i mean? that classic story when people get married and one person wants the other one to change, and they think that the other person will change if something big and dramatic happened. well, we all know how that one ends up. the dramatic situation comes and goes, and the person never changes. the person isn't influenced by the other person's actions, and they cannot be blamed for any change in the end. because essentially, the person who does change, did it on their own will. and they blame the other person for making them that way when, we all know in the age old story, that person never changes and becomes the person we want them to be.
it's the situation i'm in right now. i've offered my friendship. but i'm being pushed away. how do you try to be friends with someone who just pushes their 'friends' away? i don't buy this stuff about not treating you well & hurting you so much in the beginning. i don't know what i could have done back then to make things alright. i didn't make you into this person who shuts everyone out. you chose to do that on your own. and i'm not going to allow myself to be blamed for ways in which you choose to act.
i give you the benefit of the doubt that i wasn't what you wanted me to be back then. but all i can say is, let that go. we're not at that place anymore. we don't have that kind of relationship anymore. blame me all you want for creating this person who just shuts down, but realize that it is not me who created it. you only hide behind it because you don't ever want to deal with those issues that bother you. and that makes me worried for you. because i've been trying to get you out of that. but it is something you have to want to let go of. if you like the way you deal with your problems, then so be it. i can't do anything further to help you. i was always there when you needed me. believe it or not. i'm still always here for you. believe that or not.
but you have to realize that i didn't do that to you. you chose to deal with your problems like that, i didn't hold a gun to your head, and condition you to react like that when things don't go your way.
i do not blame you 'for the way you made me today'. i was never a person who committed to something whole-heartedly. and with you i did. i've never felt something so strong for someone, but for you i did. i never fought for something as hard as i had, but for you i did. i don't take away any harsh things from the past year. because there is much to dwell upon. the recent lying and BIG production being one of them. but that will not do anything for me. i did not make you do those things. i did not create that inside of you.
and once again, all i can say is that you chose to react like that, and shut yourself off from the one person who cares about you the most.
who knows what you want. you say you don't know, but we all know that you do. i just hope you make the right decision, and the one that is best for you in the end, because i don't know what there is left to do when you push all of your closest friends out of your life, and blame them for illegitimate things. i just hope you know what you're doing. and i wish you all the best.
a perspective from outside of your tunnel-vision,
- tim
you know what i mean? that classic story when people get married and one person wants the other one to change, and they think that the other person will change if something big and dramatic happened. well, we all know how that one ends up. the dramatic situation comes and goes, and the person never changes. the person isn't influenced by the other person's actions, and they cannot be blamed for any change in the end. because essentially, the person who does change, did it on their own will. and they blame the other person for making them that way when, we all know in the age old story, that person never changes and becomes the person we want them to be.
it's the situation i'm in right now. i've offered my friendship. but i'm being pushed away. how do you try to be friends with someone who just pushes their 'friends' away? i don't buy this stuff about not treating you well & hurting you so much in the beginning. i don't know what i could have done back then to make things alright. i didn't make you into this person who shuts everyone out. you chose to do that on your own. and i'm not going to allow myself to be blamed for ways in which you choose to act.
i give you the benefit of the doubt that i wasn't what you wanted me to be back then. but all i can say is, let that go. we're not at that place anymore. we don't have that kind of relationship anymore. blame me all you want for creating this person who just shuts down, but realize that it is not me who created it. you only hide behind it because you don't ever want to deal with those issues that bother you. and that makes me worried for you. because i've been trying to get you out of that. but it is something you have to want to let go of. if you like the way you deal with your problems, then so be it. i can't do anything further to help you. i was always there when you needed me. believe it or not. i'm still always here for you. believe that or not.
but you have to realize that i didn't do that to you. you chose to deal with your problems like that, i didn't hold a gun to your head, and condition you to react like that when things don't go your way.
i do not blame you 'for the way you made me today'. i was never a person who committed to something whole-heartedly. and with you i did. i've never felt something so strong for someone, but for you i did. i never fought for something as hard as i had, but for you i did. i don't take away any harsh things from the past year. because there is much to dwell upon. the recent lying and BIG production being one of them. but that will not do anything for me. i did not make you do those things. i did not create that inside of you.
and once again, all i can say is that you chose to react like that, and shut yourself off from the one person who cares about you the most.
who knows what you want. you say you don't know, but we all know that you do. i just hope you make the right decision, and the one that is best for you in the end, because i don't know what there is left to do when you push all of your closest friends out of your life, and blame them for illegitimate things. i just hope you know what you're doing. and i wish you all the best.
a perspective from outside of your tunnel-vision,
- tim