Jen is a buzzkiller.

[cruelbitch]

In my line of work, I get constantly propositioned not only for sex acts but also for extreme sex acts. With my particularly over-analytical state of mind, this can either be pretty hilarious or highly disturbing. In the back of my mind, I'm silently wondering if these fantasies are borne out of genuine desire or if they're conditionings projected

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[cruelbitch]

It's not neccesarily the worst job in the world, but when you're already in a vile mindset it does chip away at your polished veneer a tad. Thing is, I'm conditioned to this type of behavior from people, inside or outside of work. I have an unconventional appearence and a brazen attitude and people think I'm more susceptible to their most deviant innerworkings because they feel like I won't be shocked by it. Needless to say I find these actions unsurprising but reprehensible. For the most part I deal with older upstanding gentlemen who are respectful and appreciate the art of striptease as opposed to the modern mentality of using people as fuck and chucks. But the point of my entry was that I feel like a lot of people, especially people brought up in an image-based culture (vs a print-based culture) tend to metamorphisize into what they see (or masturbate to) day in and day out and regard sex workers as dirty as the actress in their videos. Of course, then you get the creepy old men stereotype which further capitalizes on the totality of our conditioning. The fact that people suggest that by people working in the sex industry they're "asking" to be sexually assaulted is insanity to me; it's not us that's the problem, it's them.

In short; I have a regular amount of clients who I keep around *specifically* because they are not like the aforementioned scumbags. Those are the people I trust exchanging my time for money with. The passive, gentle types who will spend the entire time massaging and talking to me about music and whatever the fuck else comes to mind. There are positives and negatives with the business, I'm afraid.

[cruelbitch]

First I just want to say, amazing post and you are pretty much 100% right about everything.:)

Second, I have a question, and I hope this doesn't come across as judgmental. But, how do you reconcile your position on the objectification of women with your job? Again, I mean this a serious question and not a judgment against what you do at all.