uggg. mother's day.
you know i think it's safe to say I am a huge advocate of holiday's that are absolutely uneccessary, but I can't fucking stand mother's day. Maybe that sounds selfish of me, but nothing makes me feel more awkward than giving something to parent A for the sake of satisfying hallmark and pinpointing every flaw that I have.
I really don't know how to communicate with my mom anymore. Infact it seems more and more that I feel like a stranger to her than a daughter or family member or who the fuck knows?
Is it really wrong for me to say that last night I came to the conclusion I am almost positive I don't love her as much as I did when I was a little kid?
Since that whole melt down at easter things(at least from my perspective) have felt significantly warped between us, and just leaves me shaking my head and clawing my face like i have the worst case of egzema known to man.
It sucks, but the worst part is none of this has even occurred to her, and well if any of it has I am completely unaware.
I've been home (at my real life house) for two days now, and I feel like my whole sense of balance has been thrown off.
I really don't know how to communicate with my mom anymore. Infact it seems more and more that I feel like a stranger to her than a daughter or family member or who the fuck knows?
Is it really wrong for me to say that last night I came to the conclusion I am almost positive I don't love her as much as I did when I was a little kid?
Since that whole melt down at easter things(at least from my perspective) have felt significantly warped between us, and just leaves me shaking my head and clawing my face like i have the worst case of egzema known to man.
It sucks, but the worst part is none of this has even occurred to her, and well if any of it has I am completely unaware.
I've been home (at my real life house) for two days now, and I feel like my whole sense of balance has been thrown off.