another place where different things matter....
so i made this little cutie for my little cutie today.
i am so proud of him :D
work sucked today, i was in for an hr and than left. But i found out that Chiara is working there now so it should be totally sweet.
i miss my babe a whole bunch, and I get worried about him when I'm not near him.
Tommorrow I have off work which is good, but i go in to take the burger test again which i'm totally nervous about.
This weekend can't come soon enough.
i'm really sick of being a chunky monkey, and even though I am content with the way my life has been going as of late, I am in no way content with how I feel in my own skin, and it really kills me. Recently I found some old pictures of Alison Mosshart from The Kills when she was in Discount, and she had short choppy dark hair and round little face and her body type was completely different compared to what it is now. And it really got me thinking. I really need to crack down and start being really strict with myself. I really want to be atleast 15-20 lb lighter when the summer comes to closure. I guess I should probably go back on weight watchers, with a combination of some form of excersize. I liked it so much better when I had the gym available to me at school, cause it was right there and I knew exactly what excersizes worked what muscles. I just can't stand to be pudgy anymore. It just seems that if i was like 30lb ligther everything in my life at the moment I would be content with, and I would definately not feel as incompitant.
in other news. i have been wearing a huge lack of makeup, like crazy and I pretty sure that I am loving it.
i am so proud of him :D
work sucked today, i was in for an hr and than left. But i found out that Chiara is working there now so it should be totally sweet.
i miss my babe a whole bunch, and I get worried about him when I'm not near him.
Tommorrow I have off work which is good, but i go in to take the burger test again which i'm totally nervous about.
This weekend can't come soon enough.
i'm really sick of being a chunky monkey, and even though I am content with the way my life has been going as of late, I am in no way content with how I feel in my own skin, and it really kills me. Recently I found some old pictures of Alison Mosshart from The Kills when she was in Discount, and she had short choppy dark hair and round little face and her body type was completely different compared to what it is now. And it really got me thinking. I really need to crack down and start being really strict with myself. I really want to be atleast 15-20 lb lighter when the summer comes to closure. I guess I should probably go back on weight watchers, with a combination of some form of excersize. I liked it so much better when I had the gym available to me at school, cause it was right there and I knew exactly what excersizes worked what muscles. I just can't stand to be pudgy anymore. It just seems that if i was like 30lb ligther everything in my life at the moment I would be content with, and I would definately not feel as incompitant.
in other news. i have been wearing a huge lack of makeup, like crazy and I pretty sure that I am loving it.