.Limbo.
There is no concept of time it seems until there's something that we desire. Or moreso, when it comes to the classic game of waiting, then it becmes an endless void of space and conceptual awareness; a faceless clock ticking away in the recesses of our mind, keeping tempo with that monotonous grating sound that sends shivers down our spines.
Patience strangely enough has been one of the few virtues I've been bestowed, and is oft one of the many words that leaves my mouth when in discussion with others. Very.. strange for a Gemini. Maybe it factors into the faxcimile of a Hivemind I have. The two personalities and minds equipped to handle the tasks into some sense of order and control. Heaven and Hell only knows how mnay times I've barked "Have Patience" to my Soul-Sister and her dilemmas. Even to the ex, my Sisters downstairs.. so many countless others.
..I'm starting to think my own threshold of patience is wearing thin.
Sitting here, reflecting over the waiting.. the grace period I have until my move south. Already there's been verbal blows thrown between my mother and myself concerning such things. Alas.. the joy of battling another Gemini. It's a continual game of chess and of wits with her. Never take things for face value, rather.. I'm left to translate and decipher what her alterior motives really are, what she wants from the deal. So sick and tired of bargaining with her. I honestly believe she never got over the 'empty nest' syndrome after I moved out and away from that... hellhole. Heroinville excuse for a city. Sure.. Pittsburgh may not be the best at times, but it was home and I had my friends.
Now it draws closer to the time that I will be saying my goodbyes to those that I have come close to. Fond farewells to the few good people in my life, and the bitter end and verbal assault on those that have tried my patience for many years coming. Swallowed back the bile, bit my tongue til' it bled.. I'm sure you've all heard it before if not felt the same damn thing.
Tired of the waiting..
Tired of the tests of my sanity, my stability..
And oh-so-pissed at the incompetence of others.
I'm telling you... there should be screening tests to see if people are 'fit' to breed. Screening tests on logic, and basic common sense. Things would be a lot easier that way.. and plain avoidance of stupidity.
..so many thoughts in my head. And yet again.. it all fizzles into not one damn thing in the same moment.
In the words of Brian Molko as the song pounds my brain for the fifth day coming..
As they dragged me to my feet, I was filled with incoherance. Theories of conspiracy, the whole world wants my disappearance. I'll go fighting nail and teeth, you've never seen such perseverance. Gonna make you scared of me..
Patience strangely enough has been one of the few virtues I've been bestowed, and is oft one of the many words that leaves my mouth when in discussion with others. Very.. strange for a Gemini. Maybe it factors into the faxcimile of a Hivemind I have. The two personalities and minds equipped to handle the tasks into some sense of order and control. Heaven and Hell only knows how mnay times I've barked "Have Patience" to my Soul-Sister and her dilemmas. Even to the ex, my Sisters downstairs.. so many countless others.
..I'm starting to think my own threshold of patience is wearing thin.
Sitting here, reflecting over the waiting.. the grace period I have until my move south. Already there's been verbal blows thrown between my mother and myself concerning such things. Alas.. the joy of battling another Gemini. It's a continual game of chess and of wits with her. Never take things for face value, rather.. I'm left to translate and decipher what her alterior motives really are, what she wants from the deal. So sick and tired of bargaining with her. I honestly believe she never got over the 'empty nest' syndrome after I moved out and away from that... hellhole. Heroinville excuse for a city. Sure.. Pittsburgh may not be the best at times, but it was home and I had my friends.
Now it draws closer to the time that I will be saying my goodbyes to those that I have come close to. Fond farewells to the few good people in my life, and the bitter end and verbal assault on those that have tried my patience for many years coming. Swallowed back the bile, bit my tongue til' it bled.. I'm sure you've all heard it before if not felt the same damn thing.
Tired of the waiting..
Tired of the tests of my sanity, my stability..
And oh-so-pissed at the incompetence of others.
I'm telling you... there should be screening tests to see if people are 'fit' to breed. Screening tests on logic, and basic common sense. Things would be a lot easier that way.. and plain avoidance of stupidity.
..so many thoughts in my head. And yet again.. it all fizzles into not one damn thing in the same moment.
In the words of Brian Molko as the song pounds my brain for the fifth day coming..
As they dragged me to my feet, I was filled with incoherance. Theories of conspiracy, the whole world wants my disappearance. I'll go fighting nail and teeth, you've never seen such perseverance. Gonna make you scared of me..