i love it.
I've been in this almost euphoric state. Like im floating through my life. I've let go of the wheel i've been gripping so tightly that my knuckles bled. I dont want you to think its this numb feeling its not at all. It's quite the opposite. I feel everything with more sensitivity than usual... i just dont fucking care. Its given me the chance to look down on the choices i've made recently. I dont regret them. I think everything that happened should have. It took me a long time to realize this. I've fucked up sooo much in the past 4 or 5 months. But i've been fucked over too. Karma is a bitch. But it is neccessary. You build your own obstacles in life. You have to train yourself to overcome them. I'm not of the emotional fortitude to climb this wall i made. I'm weak.
I saw a couple today fighting at work. She threw her napkin in his face and stormed out. She left him there. He sat and cried for about 45 minutes sipping on his cappuchino. She came back and they were laughing minutes later. He was laughing with his face still wet with tears. They walked out with their arms wrapped around each other. People are so funny.
I've started to draw again. I have some okay ideas for a new watercolor. I'll probably do it this weekend. If i cant go home.
I saw a couple today fighting at work. She threw her napkin in his face and stormed out. She left him there. He sat and cried for about 45 minutes sipping on his cappuchino. She came back and they were laughing minutes later. He was laughing with his face still wet with tears. They walked out with their arms wrapped around each other. People are so funny.
I've started to draw again. I have some okay ideas for a new watercolor. I'll probably do it this weekend. If i cant go home.