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Today was pretty cool I went bowling my scores were 86,96, 109. The last time I had bowled was around the super bowl so I kinda sucked. I have my own custom ball but I suck with it. The lanes were very empty but I need just some lone time to just like chill and do my thinking, some guys can think good in the shower I think good when I am doing some kinda sporty activity. Tommorow I think I'm going to go to the movies and see Guess Who I am so tired of asking people to see this with me and everyone has ever seen it already and/or is tired. So I'm just like fuck it I wanna see it so u know what I'm gonna see it. I really miss going to the movies, I just want some nice buttery popcorn and some nachos. Plus nobody can ever see a movie on a school day it seems like so that's y I finished up my research paper today so I can enjoy myself tommorow. Its gonna be ishloads o' fun. In other news my granddad's healf is failing and he might die sometime this week we think. Like he has just gone down hill and he has just like decided that he wants to die sleeping in his bed. All he wants to do is sleep I guess the equivalent of death basically. I mean if I could barely walk, never make a basketball shot from 2 ft away from the basket. I still remember one time when we were on this cruise ship he got sea sick and he said at one point I just felt like jumping off and ending it all, he meant like killing himself by drowning. Also my granddad lied to the people at the hospital and said he felt better just so he could get out of there y would u put up an act like that just to get out of the hospital though. My grandmom is so depressed and I think that if my Granddad goes it'll be a chain reaction. If he's gone she'll die of heartbreak. :'( I'm not kidding about this shit. So its pretty effed up. If he dies this week you guys might not see me in school for about 3 days. So i'm giving yall a heads up just incase it should happen. Tonight was the 1st time I have ever seen my mom cry her eyes out. Its pretty sad everyone in my house is silent and debating on whether they are going to go to Arizona after all. I have never seen anything quite like it. Well just thought I'd update I had to get all of this stuff off of my chest.