Realization
I realized something. I have been thinking about it lately and i realized it. My parents, my brothers, my sisters, my grandparents, society overall. None of them really actually caused my depression, eating problems, everything. None of it is their fault. I don't know how i didn't think about it.........
For my birthday one year, i got gotten a gerbil. I named him Midnight because he was as black as the midnight sky. I loved him to death. But, he sadly chocked on a seed. He ended up dieing in his sleep. Their wasn't anything we could do for him, but at least he wasn't in any pain. So, a week later, my mom took me to the pet store to get another pet. I wanted one just like Midnight. But, they had no gerbils. I started to look over the hamsters and I feel in love instantly. She was a teddy bear hamster. She had white fur with a big brown spot on her back. She was about 2 years old. I wanted her and my mom said okay. But, the pet store guy dropped her. My mom said that we should not get her because she had fallen. I told her no and that i wanted her. At first, i think we got off on the wrong spot. But, a few days later we were best of friends. I named her Daisey. I felt like she should be named that. For 5 years i had her. She died of old age. But, the time i did have her, i knew she loved me greatly. Its like she was trained. And when we moved to where we live now, i couldn't take her the first trip down because their was no room. About a month later when we went up together, i walked up to the cage and she saw me. She instantly stopped what she was doing and "ran" to the cage. I held her for hours that day. And when she died, i was very upset. My mother wouldn't let me get another one. She said that no hamster could replace her. I know that. What am i? Stupid? I told her that i knew that and i wasn't going to replace her. I was getting a friend. I knew Daisey wouldn't mind and she would be happy. But my mom prevailed. I never did get another hamster.
They say that i death of a loved one will cause depression. That is what it was. I lost Daisey and i loved her greatly. I was young and weak. I was also blind. I couldn't see it and i put others first and it blinded my eyes from seeing the depression. Soon, the depression showed through more and more. I got my eating problems and everything from trying to change myself to fit in. Family and society made it worse. They pushed me down a hole that i couldn't get out of.
They say the best kind of love you can get, is from an animal. Because animals don't care weather if your a 5 year old kid or a 50 year old serial killer. As long as you care and love for them, they will stay at your side and love you back to no end. An animal doesn't judge and they forgive and forget. Humans need to learn from animals and give them more respect. A lot more.
For my birthday one year, i got gotten a gerbil. I named him Midnight because he was as black as the midnight sky. I loved him to death. But, he sadly chocked on a seed. He ended up dieing in his sleep. Their wasn't anything we could do for him, but at least he wasn't in any pain. So, a week later, my mom took me to the pet store to get another pet. I wanted one just like Midnight. But, they had no gerbils. I started to look over the hamsters and I feel in love instantly. She was a teddy bear hamster. She had white fur with a big brown spot on her back. She was about 2 years old. I wanted her and my mom said okay. But, the pet store guy dropped her. My mom said that we should not get her because she had fallen. I told her no and that i wanted her. At first, i think we got off on the wrong spot. But, a few days later we were best of friends. I named her Daisey. I felt like she should be named that. For 5 years i had her. She died of old age. But, the time i did have her, i knew she loved me greatly. Its like she was trained. And when we moved to where we live now, i couldn't take her the first trip down because their was no room. About a month later when we went up together, i walked up to the cage and she saw me. She instantly stopped what she was doing and "ran" to the cage. I held her for hours that day. And when she died, i was very upset. My mother wouldn't let me get another one. She said that no hamster could replace her. I know that. What am i? Stupid? I told her that i knew that and i wasn't going to replace her. I was getting a friend. I knew Daisey wouldn't mind and she would be happy. But my mom prevailed. I never did get another hamster.
They say that i death of a loved one will cause depression. That is what it was. I lost Daisey and i loved her greatly. I was young and weak. I was also blind. I couldn't see it and i put others first and it blinded my eyes from seeing the depression. Soon, the depression showed through more and more. I got my eating problems and everything from trying to change myself to fit in. Family and society made it worse. They pushed me down a hole that i couldn't get out of.
They say the best kind of love you can get, is from an animal. Because animals don't care weather if your a 5 year old kid or a 50 year old serial killer. As long as you care and love for them, they will stay at your side and love you back to no end. An animal doesn't judge and they forgive and forget. Humans need to learn from animals and give them more respect. A lot more.