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I burned the photo booth pictures today.. Even ripped them into little tiny pieces. My heart. It;s beating so damn fast! and I'm dying inside... knowing that this decision I'm making is killing me and is going to kill me. I miss you every minute I'm not talking to you. But is it really worth the fighting? All the anger we show towards one another? We've been going down this road for the past few months now.. and honestly? It's getting to me. I have to let you go... and I HAVE TO stick to it. I can't keep telling myself that I want change when I'm not even doing anything to make change happen. I'll always have memories to remind me of you us.. and come what may you will always be my favorite. I want to be friends.. really I do. But not now.. maybe not for a while.. we need space an distance between us. It's the only way we can grow without suffocating each other. Sometimes good things fall apart, so that better things can fall together... I wish you all the best babe.
So... here it goes. 2011: I'm going to try.. my hardest to change everything in my life that went wrong and right it this year. Doesn't really matter that it's a new year.. but because of the mis fortunate events in the past.. I really have to stop setting myself up for disappointment, and I'm going to stop FAILING myself and everyone else around me. FAILURE IS NOT AND NEVER WILL BE AN OPTION, again. Only fools make the same mistake twice.
NOT THIS FUCKING TIME!