30 September 1981
I need to chill out. The stress of starting out as an Auror is seriously getting to me. The worst part is that there's no way that Takiyah hasn't noticed.
I'm having nightmares. Horrible nightmares about stumbling upon a friend's dead body or what maybe worse, having to work their cases. First it was Bev, which I'm used to. I've had nightmares about her murder ever since it happened. But now it's Bev, Takiyah, Jo, Alyssa, even my parents and other Aurors.
Maybe I never thought about it in training, but to some degree, I was just chasing my sister's ghost. Maybe I'm not. All I know it that this is real. Of course, none of this was helped by Quigley's night of asking every Death Eater in the Ireland area to come out and kill her.
Fuck. And I'm still secretly engaged. I'm starting to wonder if there's light at the end of that tunnel.
You know, I think this gold hoop earring was really the way to go.