Here's to hoping that the course of my history will someday change just one world.

[crowhurst]

I've always said that all I'd ever have was my honesty. That's all I can take with me because it's all that is necessary. It's what will make or break everything else about me that's good -- my writing, my personality, my friends, my family. It all depends on my honesty. And lately, that's been damaged

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[crowhurst]

Doesn't matter. There's nothing interesting here and there's nothing that I could keep saying that would make me matter more (or more intensely). I'll be better off with my journey finished early than forever sprawling uncontrollably.

I guess I'm just not cut out for it.

[sassycasserole]

Dont leave.. I will miss you

[crowhurst]

I can't stay and do it right. I can't leave and do it right. So I have to pick one and just accept what happens. Trust me, what I've decided to do is going to hurt me a lot more than any of you.

[sassycasserole]

cutting yourself off from your art won't change anything.
If you are an artist - it's in your soul.

Anyways, If you really are leaving, I wish you luck. I know you're lost, but I hope someday you realize what an amazing, intelligent, good looking guy you are.
The potential's there, you just have to use it.

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[crowhurst]

I'm not cutting myself off for any reason other than to draw myself closer. I'm just a joke right now. There's nothing serious about me. No one looks at me as an artist. No one takes me or my "art" seriously. And nor should they.

The potential to continue the joke might be there, but the potential to prove anyone otherwise -- including myself -- by not becoming drastic seems impossible. You were born with something good. I have to fight. It's too difficult to explain without losing control of my fingers to my crying.

[bashopoem]

just take a break. dont completely erase. thats not the answer.

[crowhurst]

I don't know how much I can continue to tolerate coming to this website and trying to communicate myself. It just feels so inappropriate to me; insufficient. I'm too angry.

[killrockstars]

You better call me.

[crowhurst]

I don't think I'll be using the telephone anytime soon.

[killrockstars]

Well that's dumb. What would you really accomplish by cutting everyone out?

[crowhurst]

If anyone needs me, they'll find me. If it's an emergency they should call someone reliable.

[nightburglar]

I wrote you a letter, please read and reply.