Secrets untold

[cptjohnhart]

Characters: John Hart, Jack Harkness
Rating: Most probably NC 17, if I know these boys right.WARNING: Contains themes of blasphemous nature.
Time Period: Modern
Location: John's room
Relative Date: After Devon talked to Jack
Status: Closed

Oh John was happy witht he party. he had fucked, been fucked, sucked, fucked some more and even had a fistfight. He

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[forever_jack]

Jack's mind was in turmoil. In the course of one short conversation, he'd learned that he had another daughter, that that daughter was also John's daughter, that that daughter had tried to seduce him (and he'd been only too willing), and that she was being blackmailed by some sort of uncorporeal presence in the castle.

It was pretty heavy stuff. And most of it had no easy answer to dealing with it. So Jack instinctively headed for the one place where he might be able to find answers to at least some of it

[cptjohnhart]

John did not wake up by his silent steps, but the touch he sure of a hell did. Slightly hungover or not, he jerked, rolled off the bed and went for his gun's before he realized just whom it was. He drew a long breath, and moved back to lie on the bed. "Jesus Jack, I could have blown your head of." he gave a laugh, draping himself across the bed and winking at him.

"I knew I was irresistible to you. Twice in such short time? You must be in love." He smirked wide.

[forever_jack]

"Eh, it wouldn't have taken," Jack shrugged wryly. He hadn't even bothered to move during John's little display of paranoia, except to use the time to start unlacing his boots so he could push them off and get up onto the big bed properly.

"I said I needed to talk, not fuck," he said dryly, as John settled again. In contrast to John's confident sprawl, Jack drew his knees up to his chin and wrapped his arms around them, watching John steadily above them. "I just talked to Devon," he said quietly.

[cptjohnhart]

John grinned at him, sitting up on his elbows and yawning. "Talking, fucking, what is the-" he cut himself off as he picked up what Jack just had said. "You.. ah..." it had been quite some time since John had ever been speechless, but here it was. The man pressed his lips together, before frowning. "Guess she told you, didn't she." he said, looking at the roof instead of at Jack. "Fantastic." he said in a gloomy voice.

[forever_jack]

Jack frowned, watching him. "Why didn't you tell me, John? Why didn't you think you could tell me we had a daughter?"

His voice was still quiet and there was no accusation in his eyes. He just looked haunted.

[cptjohnhart]

John had never been one to be able to stop and think, nor did he do now. He flared up, brows furrowing. "Oh I dunno, maybe because I found out *after* you buggered off to do god knows what, you think there is a reason it took me bloody ages to even find you? I had no idea where ye ran off to! I looked, but you of all people should know that tracking a time trawler is not always the easiest of things! So in the end I gave the fuck up. And when I found you again, well, I had other bloody stuff on my mind. I had planned to tell you until you told me to fuck off you 'ruddy 'territory' before I had even said anything! Talk about pissing on every corner of the galaxy," he sneered.

"So I figured since you had no want stepnd some sweet time with me, you should damn well not be allowed to talk to my daughter. I put her in care of a friend, and she had a nice upbringing, in case you were frightened that I had turned her into a worse addict then myself."

Oh definitely defensive guilt having been brewing some time there.

[forever_jack]

"I'm sorry," Jack said unhappily, his fingers tightening around his knees. "I know I didn't make it easy for you to find me. At the time, I just wanted shot of the whole Agency, and then there was the Doctor and then I got stranded and had no way to contact you."

He skipped over the whole Cardiff visit - he'd been right not to trust John then, but there was no point in going over and over old ground - and instead looked sadly at John. "But here, John - we've been stuck here together over a year and I've explained all that. And you still didn't feel you could tell me about her?"

[cptjohnhart]

John sat on the edge of the bed, his face red, his jaw clenched. For a second it looked like he concidered shooting Jack. "Because in my mind you did not deserve it. You left me when I needed you. Rehab is not as easy as you might think. And you... you would have taken her away. You know me as a person. I am not a good guy. I do what I want, without care of others. That is why I left her with a friend. I was there, visitied when I was sure no one was hunting me." he did not look at Jack, because he felt guilt.

"I thought that as usual, you would tell be to bugger off if we ever got out of her, and I was pissed by the thought. Still is, because I know you would only go back to that precious little playteam of yours, and probably grabbed Devon from in the process. I am trying to keep her safe, grow up safe, learn safe. I don't want her to risk drug lords after her, or bountyhunters." he scowled.

"I knew you would take her." he did not look at her.

[forever_jack]

"Okay." Jack let out a long breath, looking down at the covers. "I guess I deserve that."

He swallowed, and then looked up at John, his eyes very clear. "But even if I had taken her, it wouldn't have been so very different from you leaving her where you did. And I'd never have tried to keep you from her, John!"

[cptjohnhart]

John gave Jack an impatiant glare. "Oh really. I know you Jack. Under too much pressure you take off. Like you took off from me, like you run away from everything. We are not all that different, except I took the decition of leaving her with someone I trusted to never run away from anyone. You are not as brave as you think, 'Jack'" he spoke in mockery of Jack's false name." He got up from the bed, glorious nude, but uncaring off it.

"You know what I feel for you, and you know it well. But I could not risk to leave someone I love with a person like you. I could not risk you dragging her into danger all over the universe." he scowled. "I care too much for her to make her life into mine. She was never told of my evils, my drug abuse, my killings or my random sex. I tried to screen her from it."

[forever_jack]

"I'm not - I don't run from everything!" Jack protested, but he knew it sounded rather lame with his own sense of guilt underlying it. He'd run from John - or, at least, from the Time Agency; running from John was just an unfortunate side effect of that - and that was the point here.

"You did well with her," he said, watching John as he stalked about the room. "She's a fantastic girl. You really did keep her safe and - and clean from everything. I just." He hunched up even more, and whispered miserably, "I just wish that, at least, when she turned up here, you'd told me who she was."

[cptjohnhart]

"And risk you taking her when we got out? I love you Jack, but I don't trust you any more then I trust myself." he looked away in distain.

[forever_jack]

At that, rage finally flared inside Jack and he came off the bed, rounding solidly on John. "If you'd told me, maybe I wouldn't have ended up nearly fucking her last night! And she wouldn't have let some stranger take her virginity because she didn't want me to have to take it!"

[cptjohnhart]

It took a lot to make John go silent in shock, but this certianly did. He stared at Jack, all colour draining from John's face. He swayed a bit, before sitting down and leaning over to breathe. "She... Stranger... You... What?!" he nearly shoutet, balling his fists. "Why the hell would she do that?! She knew who you were, she knew you were her dad, why the hell would she go after you?!"

[forever_jack]

"Because she was being blackmailed to do so," Jack told him, his voice fierce and low. He couldn't help feeling just a little bit glad to have dealt a blow back at John after all the blame that had been coming his way. "Some uncorporeal presence here apparently wanted her to seduce me so it could manipulate me into doing... whatever it was it wanted. I don't know what! But she ran off at the last minute, bless her, and god knows what that thing's going to do to her in revenge."

[cptjohnhart]

"Who did she sleep with." Johns voice was tight, and there was definate murder in his blue eyes. He was angry, that rage he had had when he had shoved Jack off the rooftop, boiling inside him like a volcano. "What is his name. And I will hunt down that 'presence', or whatever it is, and I will make sure it will pay for doing what it is doing." he growled hateful.