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I seriously wish I was like seven years old again. Remember when there was a time when boys had cooties and girls always stuck together no matter what? Remember when no one called each other bitches and sluts for no reason other than they "stole" your boyfriend (come on, you broke up already!)? Remember those days?? Honestly, I miss them so much. I would rather fight with an other girl because she copied favorite color rather than fight with her because shes bad mouthing me when she doesnt know me. I will never understand what goes through a guys head. Seriously, fill me in here.
I hate not being able to trust people. Ever since Chris and I broke up, Ive had tremendous trust issues. Every guy I meet I second guess, and I feel like I will never be able to fully trust them. It gets worse when the people who I do trust, I start to doubt, and I think thats worse than not trusting in the first place.
I think I jump into things way too quickly. I dont remember the last time I sat down and thought about things in the whole picture. I told myself after Chris and I broke up, that I wanted to be single for a while and get things back on track with school and money and what not. Well, already, my money situation is not getting any better, and Im already involved with someone else. Granted, he is one of the most amazing guys I have known, like, ever, its still me jumping into something. I let people take advantage of me too much. I can be way too nieve a lot of the time.
I want to start freshman year of high school over again, and do a BILLION things differently...you dont even know...