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Blah on life is all I have to say.
So, he did eventually call, not long after I wrote that last entry in fact. And he was all, "I still want to be friends, I don't regret what happened, it was probably a poor decision, but we can't change it now, I'm sorry I was a jerk to you, I'm not good with morning afters, blah blah." And he claims that he never knew I had a thing for him and he never had one for me and it was not his intention going into the evening to hook up with me. I swear on your mom, he told me while we were hanging out on his couch that he liked me. I could have misheard. Or made it up. Or he was drunker than I thought. But I don't think so. Also, what kind of boy who doesn't want to get in your pants buys you drinks and hangs out almost exclusively with you at parties and tells you you're his favorite person to work with and generally acts like he wants in your pants?? ARGH.
He also said something to the effect of "You're the only person I would have done that with". Um, thanks..? I'm glad to know that you find none of your other friends worthy enough to sort of have sex with and then treat like poo in the morning. So yeah, he still wants to be friends and see me if I ever come up to PSU next year, and maybe we'll do the formal thing who knows. All in all, probably a bad decision. But I got what I wanted, sort of maybe. Oy.
Also, I'm really upset because I found out my Grandpa is leaving good ol' NEPA and moving in with my cousins in Connecticut. Which is really sad, because he's like the only family I have that I see on a regular basis. All the rest of my family either lives in other states, or they live here but they're the cousins we don't like and only talk to at funerals when necessary. I'm so jealous of people with big obnoxious families that they see all the time. My family holidays generally consist of my immediate family (mom, dad, sister) and Grandpa. And my uncle if he comes in from State College, which is rare. So now it's just going to be us. Why even bother? Also, the only time our other cousins ever come see us is when they're staying with Grandpa. So now they're just all going to go to fucking Connecticut and have a super swell time without us. God damnit, all I really want in life is a viable working family.
Why does everyone I love always leave??
So, he did eventually call, not long after I wrote that last entry in fact. And he was all, "I still want to be friends, I don't regret what happened, it was probably a poor decision, but we can't change it now, I'm sorry I was a jerk to you, I'm not good with morning afters, blah blah." And he claims that he never knew I had a thing for him and he never had one for me and it was not his intention going into the evening to hook up with me. I swear on your mom, he told me while we were hanging out on his couch that he liked me. I could have misheard. Or made it up. Or he was drunker than I thought. But I don't think so. Also, what kind of boy who doesn't want to get in your pants buys you drinks and hangs out almost exclusively with you at parties and tells you you're his favorite person to work with and generally acts like he wants in your pants?? ARGH.
He also said something to the effect of "You're the only person I would have done that with". Um, thanks..? I'm glad to know that you find none of your other friends worthy enough to sort of have sex with and then treat like poo in the morning. So yeah, he still wants to be friends and see me if I ever come up to PSU next year, and maybe we'll do the formal thing who knows. All in all, probably a bad decision. But I got what I wanted, sort of maybe. Oy.
Also, I'm really upset because I found out my Grandpa is leaving good ol' NEPA and moving in with my cousins in Connecticut. Which is really sad, because he's like the only family I have that I see on a regular basis. All the rest of my family either lives in other states, or they live here but they're the cousins we don't like and only talk to at funerals when necessary. I'm so jealous of people with big obnoxious families that they see all the time. My family holidays generally consist of my immediate family (mom, dad, sister) and Grandpa. And my uncle if he comes in from State College, which is rare. So now it's just going to be us. Why even bother? Also, the only time our other cousins ever come see us is when they're staying with Grandpa. So now they're just all going to go to fucking Connecticut and have a super swell time without us. God damnit, all I really want in life is a viable working family.
Why does everyone I love always leave??