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[crotchpower]

i don't feel good.  i don't know what i expected. I feel empty.  what did i expect to feel?  perhaps i'll learn how lonesome i truly you am without you.  oh for fuck sake i just want so much out of life... i am never too sure as to what i want.  part of me feels as if i've ruined the one good, wholesome relationship i will ever encounter.  and another part of me says there's more out there... more life to live, more people to encounter, more battles to defeat.

my lips have never tasted so salty, 
my heart never felt this numb.

And i will oh i will not forget you
Nor will i ever let you go
I will oh i will not forget you

-Sarah McLachlan