Updates
Uhhh. Wow. My last update was in January. So that art-store job I got?
I don't have it anymore, thanks to the pandemic/quarantine. They let me and the other part-time workers go after about two weeks. Cowards.
Being introverted, it's taken me about half a year to finally get stir-crazy, so I'm getting back into exercising.
Unemployment is easily giving me twice as much money as my actual job, though setting it up was a bitch. And I also had to cancel my health insurance for draining half my minimum-wage paycheck. (They lied when they said it was the cheapest, so now I'm hunting around for a better one.)
Still trying to finish my various half-finished works. One novel draft is down, two major projects to go, about five million other projects I need to start picking out of a hat or something.
I also got asked to let some students read my poetry for a school! So that's great, I just need to tweak the poem and send it to the teacher by next week.
However, not very motivated to finish my OTHER works when a) people STILL aren't bothering to read them or at least boost my work on social-media to show support, or b) one of them is a play and I obviously won't be able to meet people in large groups for a while yet.
I just want to make a living off my writing. Why the fuck is it so hard for 90% of my circles to support me?
I mean, I know why. Because I spend weeks with no support or acknowledgement or really any progress, finally vent about the lack of support, and then SOMEONE always comes in and gives me some fucking advice that I already tried, or advice to maybe not be so mad and bitter about the lack of support, or advice about some shit and advice about other shit and FUCKING MORE AND MORE AND MORE ADVICE, INSTEAD OF JUST CLICKING THE DAMN SHARE BUTTON OR CHECKING OUT MY WORK FOR FIVE MINUTES, LIKE I KEEP BEGGING PEOPLE TO DO, and it's just rinse and repeat.
People don't like hearing that they haven't been supporting me, and yet they don't think to ACTUALLY SUPPORT ME for thirty seconds to make me be less mad. It's a really bad cycle with a lot of artists, unfortunately.