Jul 14, 2010 20:06
"I try to smile my tears away
i try to keep my cool
but one more door gets in my way
i feel like such a fool."
How could anyone be so inconsiderate as to ask me to go out when Im still feeling unwell.
Dont you know that socialising in a group where you're totally uncomfortable with takes effort?
and the constant stress of trying to come up with things to talk about exist?
Its formalities and im subjected to that in a group context which I cannot avoid
and I feel oblige to brush my uneasiness and possible fatigue away.
Perhaps you have no idea how often and easily I can get a headache and have to put up with it
while stuck in situation that simply doesnt alleviate the nagging pain.
I try to be okay. I try to do what you want me to. But why do I always have to let you have your way easily even when in time when you should put me first?
and mind you, im still sick.
I wonder what give you the right to force me to go when I've already decline to.
shouldnt you be the one insisting that I stay home to rest?
shouldnt you be the one to turn down all offers just so I can recover properly?
shouldnt you know how on earth did I fall so sick?
how careless of you.
care-less.
thanks.
You keep me safe in a crazy world.
You understand me.
Embrace my fragility.
You keep me safe in a crazy world.
cos when I wrapped up in your arms,
Nothing else could touch me
What a wonderful way to recharge
I feel like I can breathe again.
I realise, i can protect myself from the rest of the world, but finding it hard to protect myself from your carelessness.