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Mar 26, 2006 08:23

livejournal is all in japanese. i have no idea if you:ll even be able to read this. but i made it alive! and tokiko`s parents only thought i was very cute and tried to kill me。

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corpse_sing April 16 2006, 20:24:23 UTC
;) Well then, I suppose that may work in my favor.

That perspective is certainly a big part of it. I suppose I'm especially attached to the idea of a vastly different perspective because of what happened with my vision. When your sight is taken away you are forced to think about vision/perspective metaphorically as well as literally. Having your vision return after years is the strangest thing ever. I'll have to elaborate on this some other time if you're interested. Basically I see things very, very differently with my eyes which has directed my thoughts towards the other ways I "see" and "perceive differently, if that makes any sense.

My life is different because I feel like a child just waking up, all the time. I feel enchanted and so much more...real...and surreal at the same time, than I ever did. I feel like I've woken up from this vague, fuzzy, ambiguous dream that I was living in before. I'm suddenly more than just part of the machinery and my mind has opened up to the possibilites of believing everything and helping anyone. I have hope and I feel strong where as before I wouldn't have even connected those feelings to myself. I wasn't hopeless or weak, those descriptions just weren't applicable to me. I was normal and boring. I don't know what else to say, I just wasn't special, I had no identity, I was almost soulless. Now I live the sort of life that makes people frightened of me because I don't have any reason not to do whatever I want. I know that I can become the sort of person that I thought the only way I'd ever touch was by pretending to be cool and getting them to fall in <3 with me.

I don't think I'll be there for SF pride. I believe that's the weekend I leave. When are you coming back from Japan? I think that I'm going to try to catch LA pride...it's the 10th or 11th.

My Q stands for Quinn. My birth name is Jessica but I changed it to Quinn because I became obsessed with Ann Rice novels after a summer of lounging around sunbathing, drinking wine and wishing I was either an anime character or a vampire. Quinn is from blackwood farm. He's a bisexual boy-genius/savant who has a parasitical doppelganger, a mysterious and wealthy family and a tutor he secretly in love with among other things. He ends up becoming a vampire and roaming the world with Lestat from the famous Interview with the Vampire. After reading Blackwood farm I was just like...Ok, that's me. And I don't identify as being a girl necessarily...I'm very andro, genderqueer-ish so I prefer a gender neutral name.

I'm going to email you now just so that I have your email in my adress booky thing.

-quinn

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