Dont comment unless you have a pill for me
mckenzie. its been over a year since i have seen you. I have come to the point that i have stop trying in school. I had straight A's last nine weeks. but realizing you might not move back is like god flooding the earth again, earth is now my heart. never having this happen to me you consume my thoughts about 80% of the day. the rest is school work. which i really dont care about.
at first i was like. its high school. i mean im young, what do i know. maybe its just 17 year old feelings. but they dont go away and i havent seen you in a year. i found myself drinking and doing random drugs in past nights with my friends. hoping they were a release from you not here. but they really just made we wake up in a worser sadness. i have never had the feeling that someone cares about me. and you are the only person i get that feeling from. one night i was on like 14 CCC's, and some alcohol...bad combination. could have gone to emergency room. but one girl ive never met her name is caitlyn. she looked out for me all night, and was by my side. never talked to her in my life. and that was the best feeling in the world. and i was like. ive never felt like this before besides mckenzie. I mean i dont "care" about this girl caitlyn. but she made me feel the way i wanted to feel. cared for by someone who is there for you no matter how bad you were feeling. and just not having you here is like having no life. but the pills and drinking makes no better for the situation so i have stopped that thank god or i would have killed myself.
I really have no idea why im even going on with this shit. its just a dream of mine. i dont know i just want your thoughts. I lvoe you with all my heart, soul, body, and mind.
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I love you and want to be with you forever. <3 goodbye my dream.
at first i was like. its high school. i mean im young, what do i know. maybe its just 17 year old feelings. but they dont go away and i havent seen you in a year. i found myself drinking and doing random drugs in past nights with my friends. hoping they were a release from you not here. but they really just made we wake up in a worser sadness. i have never had the feeling that someone cares about me. and you are the only person i get that feeling from. one night i was on like 14 CCC's, and some alcohol...bad combination. could have gone to emergency room. but one girl ive never met her name is caitlyn. she looked out for me all night, and was by my side. never talked to her in my life. and that was the best feeling in the world. and i was like. ive never felt like this before besides mckenzie. I mean i dont "care" about this girl caitlyn. but she made me feel the way i wanted to feel. cared for by someone who is there for you no matter how bad you were feeling. and just not having you here is like having no life. but the pills and drinking makes no better for the situation so i have stopped that thank god or i would have killed myself.
I really have no idea why im even going on with this shit. its just a dream of mine. i dont know i just want your thoughts. I lvoe you with all my heart, soul, body, and mind.
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I love you and want to be with you forever. <3 goodbye my dream.