STUCK!
So there's a big party going on tonight that just about everyone is going to, including my best friend. And I am not going because that just isnt my atmosphere. Cops are probably going to bust it and I dont want to be sprinting back to my room. With my big bro being here, I feel that I have to entertain him. And I shouldnt have to feel that way. We should just be able to hang out. But, no he has to drink. Why does everything revolve around drinking?? Everything in Olivet does, and in my family. I feel bad cause if youre here at school your going to the party, or staying here and watching a movie, then passing out. So, no one wants to do anything. Theyre either going to get wasted, or lounge here. And I feel as though I am looked at as this huge looser. Where here this year I am in an authoritative role. And because I am not at the partys for my own personnal reasons, peopel view me as this stuck up bitch. Adn thats not it at all, my true friends know who I really am. I got uspset earlier because two of my friends realized that something was wrong with me, that I was upset, but my bro didnt even realize it till I was crying in my bed. Sorry, but I DO NOT have to drink to have fun. And it seems like he does. And everyoen does. Well thats not me!!! I gotta go, I am too upset to write.