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it's time for a change.
i'm not going to be me anymore.
because, well, no one really seems to enjoy who i am.
SO... i'm not gonna do it anymore.
i'm going to patch everything up.
thats right kids, i am busting out the emotional super glue!
give me five weeks.
five weeks is all i need to figure out my scheme.
i have most of it figured out because ashley lets me talk.
a lot.
sometimes she lets me cry to her until three a.m.
thats what best friends are for.
i'd let her cry to me til three a.m.
ashley thinks my plan should be written in a book.
now, i am doing this because:
(a) i cry too much.
(b) i have recently cried over my crying too much.
(c) my shrink told me im SUPPOSED to be this way.
-she said 'considering your family history, i'd be worried if you DIDNT have separation anxiety'... um gee thanks?
(d) my crying too much and freaking out have caused me to lose the two people i love the very mostest.
(e) i'm sick of using 'the disorder' as an excuse.
SO... as of today i am only crying to my mommy. or my grandma. okay, only anyone in my family. my biological family. the people who let me fall out of my mommy's vagina.
the rest of you will only see me in happy states of mind. i will be a botox barbie, with a plastic smile.. unable to show any emotion except happiness.
and then phase two will begin.
phase two is top secret.
only ashley knows, and im only telling her.
this will work. WILL w o r k.
i hope.
i'm not going to be me anymore.
because, well, no one really seems to enjoy who i am.
SO... i'm not gonna do it anymore.
i'm going to patch everything up.
thats right kids, i am busting out the emotional super glue!
give me five weeks.
five weeks is all i need to figure out my scheme.
i have most of it figured out because ashley lets me talk.
a lot.
sometimes she lets me cry to her until three a.m.
thats what best friends are for.
i'd let her cry to me til three a.m.
ashley thinks my plan should be written in a book.
now, i am doing this because:
(a) i cry too much.
(b) i have recently cried over my crying too much.
(c) my shrink told me im SUPPOSED to be this way.
-she said 'considering your family history, i'd be worried if you DIDNT have separation anxiety'... um gee thanks?
(d) my crying too much and freaking out have caused me to lose the two people i love the very mostest.
(e) i'm sick of using 'the disorder' as an excuse.
SO... as of today i am only crying to my mommy. or my grandma. okay, only anyone in my family. my biological family. the people who let me fall out of my mommy's vagina.
the rest of you will only see me in happy states of mind. i will be a botox barbie, with a plastic smile.. unable to show any emotion except happiness.
and then phase two will begin.
phase two is top secret.
only ashley knows, and im only telling her.
this will work. WILL w o r k.
i hope.