Nov 03, 2005 20:38
why am i updating this.
because i need something to do during the period of painful apathy that comes after mild anxiety attacks. its sort of distressing.
came home, court things, my liscense is apparently to be revoked for 6 months.
because she is supportive and understanding, my mother's thoughts on this were:
"you know, the irony is the one being most hurt by this isn't you, its me. i have to drive you everywhere now."
i, being prideful and trying to hide the knife she has just metaphorically driven into my heart, told her i would be taking the bus and walking everywhere, to save her the disadvantage. she told me not to be an idiot.
i then freaked out and cried and almost choked to death on my own snot. she turned on her audio book, and apparently unable to drown out my sobbing which i was, in my defense, trying really hard to muffle. when the gasping for air got loud, she turned up the volume.
i am really good at getting over these types of things.
today dr. solomon taught me self hypnosis techniques to control my panic attacks.
at the office, my mother commented on how well id been doing.
everyone agreed.