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[crookedrecluse]

i dont know why i do most of the things i do lately.
such as get a sinus infection the week of finals
and audition for theatre things i will not make
and not eat because i have work and home-fuck-work
and hide when i see josh's family
at the library even though i wish i still felt
like a part of it.

coughed all day.
coughed up blood, a little.
maybe i should stop smoking.

what a laugh.