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Man i really love when people notice that I've lost weight. RAWR! Its fukin encouraging man. Cause I dont notice that ive lost weight. Like i just dont see it. But sometimes i FEEL smaller. I have 30 more days untill i leave for vegas and im pretty fuckin determined to feel at least okay about myself in swim gear. I need to up the amount if crunhes and weights i do everyday cause mostly its just my upper body that is chubbylicious. Im avoiding the scale though for two reasons. 1- if ive lost more weight that i think i might get too happy and then decide to reward myself with 2 crisp meat burritos and half a tub of strawberry cheesecake ice cream. and 2- if i havent lost enough weight as i want then i might say fuck this and get drunk and eat a bunch of happy hour food. Both are horrrrrrrrible ideas. Its better to be unaware of my progress.
30 days.
30 fucking dayyyysssssss.
i dont think ive ever eaten so many apples in my life.
