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I want to thank everyone for their comments about me and drums. But a lot of you said stuff like, "you are so good and you obviously love it so dont stop!" but what you guys don't know is that i hate drums. They make me absoloutly miserable. They stress me out and depress me and my mom has given me permission to quit. Shouldn't i love drums so much that everytime i go to practice i would be happy. But every time i DO go to practice, i get stressed out and wish that i didn't have to play. If i was going to be an awesome drummer i would love it, and i don't. So i think i am going to quit. Not because i didn't make it, but because i am not happy like my dad is or like spencer is. No one understands how hard it is to be in the shadow of your boyfriend and your dad when it comes to something you want to be good at. Compared to them i am crap. I just want to be happy and i want to do something that makes me happy. Drums is what causes my feelings that i have no talent, which i don't. I just don't understand. I just can't find anything out there that is for me. My decision about quitting drums will be made tomorrow probably. If i quit i only have two more lessons in which i will thank my teacher for dealing with me for a year and a half. I really think i am going to quit you guys, i just don't love it like spencer and my dad do. I don't think it is for me anymore. I will have to start looking for something else to do. I never planned on majoring in music anyway. Thank you for listening to me whine.