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So how does it feel to pour your heart and soul to someone that you feel like you're in love with, only to be told that you were nothing more than a one-night stand? I don't need to tell you, and I hope that you never have to find out for yourself.
I might as well go on about this now, seeing as how I've got your attention. Leading up to IFC, my one roommate that wanted me to take him down there was telling him about this girl that he was starting to like, and if you know me well enough, then you know how I get uneasy when I hear about girls my friends talk about. But he told me that it would be all right, and even went as far as to let her know about me and the kinda guy that I am. She told him that she would like to meet me and see for herself what I was about, which made things a little easier for me. Once the con weekend rolled around, we were just about inseparable...pretty much arm-in-arm the whole time. I loved how she would just out of the blue nose her way into my chest and start purring...it was just adorable. Not to mention the fact that the sex we had was incredible...that is only a tiny portion of what makes her so good in my eyes.
During the weekend and leading up to it, she was telling me about how her current mate was a possessive, controlling scumbag who didn't want her to really do much of anything with anyone else. I've really come to despise these kind of people, but what can you say when this constitutes 90% of the furry guys out there who have women with them? That's just pathetic. I'm not the kinda guy that would go to those lengths with a girl. . .my mantra with that is that any mate of mine is free to do what they wish as long as everybody's cool with it, just so long as they remember who they are true to at the end of the night. That's how me and klepsydra have been able to maintain our relationship for the past 4-1/2 years despite being so far away from each other. So we all go our separate ways after the con after exchanging contact info and stuff to stay connected.
And what does she do? SHE GOES BACK TO THE SAME SCUMBAG THAT SHE WAS TRYING TO GET AWAY FROM! I don't wanna see her hurt or anything, but at the same time, I don't want to see her end up in a bad relationship like my friend bliskwhiskers is in. Couple that with the pain of being rejected (once again), and I decide that I'm not gonna take this lying down. I've been telling her how much she's meant to me in the past couple of weeks, even to the point of saying that I'm actually in love with her. But it turns out that she would rather be with the immature, controlling, possessive...and potentially abusive mutt than with a crocodile who may be down on his luck, but who at least has his shit together. I was ready to tell klepsydra about her...and maybe I will. But it will probably not be in the same light as I was about to.
It is stuff like this that turns straight or female-biased guys completely gay...or causes them to blow their brains out. But I will do neither. I know that I am right, no matter what...even if I realize that it is best to cut my losses and turn tail. But like I said...I will fight tooth and claw to the very end to get her to see the light...that and proud dragonesses shouldn't be mingling with lowly mongrels anyway. Especially if their tails curl back...but what do I know? I'm still too busy struggling to pick up the pieces of my shattered heart to care.
~ \ Croco / ~
I might as well go on about this now, seeing as how I've got your attention. Leading up to IFC, my one roommate that wanted me to take him down there was telling him about this girl that he was starting to like, and if you know me well enough, then you know how I get uneasy when I hear about girls my friends talk about. But he told me that it would be all right, and even went as far as to let her know about me and the kinda guy that I am. She told him that she would like to meet me and see for herself what I was about, which made things a little easier for me. Once the con weekend rolled around, we were just about inseparable...pretty much arm-in-arm the whole time. I loved how she would just out of the blue nose her way into my chest and start purring...it was just adorable. Not to mention the fact that the sex we had was incredible...that is only a tiny portion of what makes her so good in my eyes.
During the weekend and leading up to it, she was telling me about how her current mate was a possessive, controlling scumbag who didn't want her to really do much of anything with anyone else. I've really come to despise these kind of people, but what can you say when this constitutes 90% of the furry guys out there who have women with them? That's just pathetic. I'm not the kinda guy that would go to those lengths with a girl. . .my mantra with that is that any mate of mine is free to do what they wish as long as everybody's cool with it, just so long as they remember who they are true to at the end of the night. That's how me and klepsydra have been able to maintain our relationship for the past 4-1/2 years despite being so far away from each other. So we all go our separate ways after the con after exchanging contact info and stuff to stay connected.
And what does she do? SHE GOES BACK TO THE SAME SCUMBAG THAT SHE WAS TRYING TO GET AWAY FROM! I don't wanna see her hurt or anything, but at the same time, I don't want to see her end up in a bad relationship like my friend bliskwhiskers is in. Couple that with the pain of being rejected (once again), and I decide that I'm not gonna take this lying down. I've been telling her how much she's meant to me in the past couple of weeks, even to the point of saying that I'm actually in love with her. But it turns out that she would rather be with the immature, controlling, possessive...and potentially abusive mutt than with a crocodile who may be down on his luck, but who at least has his shit together. I was ready to tell klepsydra about her...and maybe I will. But it will probably not be in the same light as I was about to.
It is stuff like this that turns straight or female-biased guys completely gay...or causes them to blow their brains out. But I will do neither. I know that I am right, no matter what...even if I realize that it is best to cut my losses and turn tail. But like I said...I will fight tooth and claw to the very end to get her to see the light...that and proud dragonesses shouldn't be mingling with lowly mongrels anyway. Especially if their tails curl back...but what do I know? I'm still too busy struggling to pick up the pieces of my shattered heart to care.
~ \ Croco / ~