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So, a few things have happened...
On Friday I basically told Erik that I didn't want him to come, that I didn't want to be with him, and that things are best if we just left them in Germany...
I decided after that I really didn't want that--and I really don't. If I could have anything, it would be to be with him. He never called me yesterday and figured it was done for. He called me today and I told him how I felt and that I would really, really, really want to see him here in 18 days. He got off the phone telling me that he had to really think things through because he was confused and chances are good that he'll most likely come over here on the 25th. He understood what I was trying to say when i said it wouldn't make sense for him to come here and then leave--my feelings in the middle. He ended the conversation with, "I love you" and said he'd call me tomorrow.
I logged into myspace and looked at his profile and he added a picture of him and his ex girlfriend. Is it wrong to find that a little upsetting? Apparently she now has a myspace and she's on his friends list. Of course, I looked at hers and she's simply stunning and gorgeous. He even commented on her site saying how hot the picture was and a few other things that I couldn't translate. She also has a picture of him and her together on her site. Am I in the wrong to feel the way I am? He was with her for 7 plus years and now she's in his life and blah, blah, blah. How can he expect me not to feel intimidated or insecure..?
Maybe what I said to him on Friday is the way it should be. I don't want to interfere with his life and Germany. I'll only complicate things for him.
I'm not going to mention to him that I saw his ex on there and the picture. I'll just keep my mouth shut so I don't come off as a psycho bitch, a controlling bitch, an insecure bitch, or a jealous bitch.
gin
On Friday I basically told Erik that I didn't want him to come, that I didn't want to be with him, and that things are best if we just left them in Germany...
I decided after that I really didn't want that--and I really don't. If I could have anything, it would be to be with him. He never called me yesterday and figured it was done for. He called me today and I told him how I felt and that I would really, really, really want to see him here in 18 days. He got off the phone telling me that he had to really think things through because he was confused and chances are good that he'll most likely come over here on the 25th. He understood what I was trying to say when i said it wouldn't make sense for him to come here and then leave--my feelings in the middle. He ended the conversation with, "I love you" and said he'd call me tomorrow.
I logged into myspace and looked at his profile and he added a picture of him and his ex girlfriend. Is it wrong to find that a little upsetting? Apparently she now has a myspace and she's on his friends list. Of course, I looked at hers and she's simply stunning and gorgeous. He even commented on her site saying how hot the picture was and a few other things that I couldn't translate. She also has a picture of him and her together on her site. Am I in the wrong to feel the way I am? He was with her for 7 plus years and now she's in his life and blah, blah, blah. How can he expect me not to feel intimidated or insecure..?
Maybe what I said to him on Friday is the way it should be. I don't want to interfere with his life and Germany. I'll only complicate things for him.
I'm not going to mention to him that I saw his ex on there and the picture. I'll just keep my mouth shut so I don't come off as a psycho bitch, a controlling bitch, an insecure bitch, or a jealous bitch.
gin